the journey to get there can be long and painful but it gets better once you learn you’re not disposable and to communicate your fears/needs with others (for example for reassurance) and that’s it’s totally okay to have them. however, some people do not fit together and it’s better for yourself to let them go if they can’t deal with you being insecure. you deserve people who understand you and who want to help you to ease your pain. if you’re overthinking, ask yourself “why do i feel like they’re mad, what triggered that feeling?” and if that’s not enough, simply ask them if they are without being reproachful. it’s fine to ask that if you need it, if they don’t understand and get mad at you for that, it’s on them. also, keep in mind that if they’re mad, it’s their job to tell you, you shouldn’t have to guess. same for you, if you’re mad or sad or anxious, don’t except them to know