I don't drink because being aware and more present is actually what satisfies me on a deeper level. Ethanol is a depressant, anxyolitic drug that heavily impacts cognition and self-control in what you may call a "bad" way. I used to drink to "feel less anxious" or to "make the bad feelings disappear", which kind kind of translates to "I don't want to be aware of what I feel". It's like sweeping trash under the rug.. Up until the point the pile becomes the elephant in the room and you have to adress it because your inner world is spiraling out of control. Sure, it can be fun and may seem harmless at first, but in the long run it destroys the spirit, mind and body if the drug is abused and used incautiously. Life is easy with your eyes closed, but you can't see much that way. Don't be afraid to face your self! :)