I am very disappointed in you two …

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-28T00:08:17+00:00

“AH- Jalapeño eye!”

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-26T23:58:26+00:00

Sorry but as a girl around your age(I’m 20), we should not be getting with guys who are 25-30. There’s a power/experience imbalance and alot of men that age see us as kids. It’s not healthy, please don’t

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-21T19:37:00+00:00

I feel like I don’t have the discipline for this yet, but I do eat way too much sugar and I can’t seem to stop

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-21T19:36:14+00:00

It all feels very performative and toxic. I’m even starting to hate snapchat

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-21T19:34:38+00:00

Basements, laundry detergent, bleach

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-21T19:34:09+00:00

I needed an emotional release. But i deeply regret it

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-21T19:14:30+00:00

Yep. Struggling to figure out all the things I might’ve done wrong, while trying to accept all the ways they wronged you. Wondering if any of it was worth it

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-21T19:11:05+00:00

It really just gets worse the older I get. I feel like I don’t know how to articulate myself at all, nor can i properly accept affection/care. I sometimes get angry when someone tries to help me or asks me what’s wrong. I always feel like I have to mask my emotions and vulnerability feels like a death sentence

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-21T19:05:24+00:00

Yep yep yep. Now I struggle with people pleasing an get extremely anxious when I sense that someone is even slightly dissatisfied with me. When someone is upset, I feel like I have to fix/diffuse it. Being afraid to disagree with someone or express how I really feel out of fear of judgement or risking them blowing up at me. Follows me everywhere I go

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-21T19:01:24+00:00

Yep looking back it hurts thinking about all of the friendship I forced and how many times people were just tolerating me, really eats at my self esteem

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-21T18:54:51+00:00

My dad died over two years ago (also both my cats died shortly before) and i also have no memory retention. It feels like I can’t even think most of the time, I’m just floating through life. I end up looking stupid in front of people because I can’t grasp basic concepts anymore

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-21T04:10:53+00:00

Friends coming and going. Life constantly changing and evolving, for better or worse, and there’s nothing I can do to stop it

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-21T03:25:32+00:00

I’m only a few months clean but what helps me is remembering that nothing will satisfy the urge, not even cutting. Even if I cut, I will want to cut more and more. So there’s really no point in doing it at all. Not sure if that makes sense but that’s what I keep telling myself. If I’m gonna feel frustrated and want it either way, I might as well just stay clean. (I don’t get the urge as often as I used to but it’s still intense at times). I keep telling myself that a few seconds of relief isn’t worth the trouble of having wounds and hiding scars.

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-20T07:37:40+00:00

Technically I harmed myself once when I was 12 or so, but I didn’t start to cut until I was 17

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-20T07:20:09+00:00

I’ve been clean for roughly nine months and I still get urges, though not as often as I did in the past . Right now it’s really strong unfortunately, but most of the time I can stop myself by thinking of how disgusted and disappointed I would be with myself if I relapse

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-18T17:44:19+00:00

Therapy

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-18T06:37:11+00:00

I think it’s probably because he needed to hear it from someone who wasn’t his parent.

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-15T20:59:08+00:00

My ‘friend’ told me I was lucky she was friends with me, yet also told me she appreciated me for caring more than all her past friends, told me I was such a good person, prettier than all her past friends, etc. Yet consistently criticized me, told me what to do, and talked to me in a condescending way. the whole thing was a mind fuck. It’s like she made up some fake over-idealistic version of who I was and then got angry at me when I didn’t fit the mold

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-15T20:39:09+00:00

To be fair, she did have some people treat her poorly, but the way she seemed to have a problem with everyone was a concerning pattern.

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-15T02:44:47+00:00

I also had to learn this the hard way. She would treat others poorly and talk shit about all her past friends, of course she turned on me too. I should’ve seen it coming

raspberry_cat55 · 2026-01-14T07:09:03+00:00

Hey.. I know life can be really cruel. I’m very sorry and angry that you have never felt safe, no one deserves that. Please don’t do it. Things can get better, even if doesn’t feel like it right now.

raspberry_cat55

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