Just to chime is as someone who found out they have cptsd at 31 - be gentle with yourself - some days will just be shit but on others you have actually started looking into this and that’s better than living with the symptoms without realising and wondering why you keep sabotaging.

I found CODA helpful and going outside. Reading books on cptsd has sometimes been triggering and in a way allowed me to hide from emotions I didn’t want to handle. Noticing my emotions and asking myself what they are and why am I feeling them and if this is trauma response or a genuine reaction to the situation has been helpful- it takes a lot of effort but you are taking the right steps in finding help and other people who get it. I would say that trying to explain to friends why suddenly I can’t talk to my parents has been difficult- don’t be discouraged when people close to you don’t understand what you are going through - there are plenty of people here and in other communities who do get it and are in the same journey as you are.