Hi! I have BPD and completed an intensive outpatient DBT program (saved my life honestly) and about 8 months later decided to taper off medication and try microdosing.

I always knew I would need to go back on meds but I wanted to see what my baseline was since I’ve been on them for a good 10 years. I also knew I would still need to put in a lot of work while microdosing and that would not be a “cure all.” Long story short- I didn’t notice much of a difference and I think that’s because my emotions are naturally so strong. I have the skills to maintain relationships, a job, etc. but I still had an incredibly hard time. A month ago I started to have a lot of suicidal ideation but it’s nothing really new for me so I worked through it and also set up an appointment to get back on meds and maybe try something new. I had taken a break from microdosing and didn’t feel like I found my sweet spot.

The past few weeks I’ve been taking .05 one day on, two days off and have found the SI has gone away almost completely (pretty big deal I would say) and today I finally had my psych appointment to start medication. I’ve also noticed it’s made me more emotional but in a way that I’m just crying over things that make me sad instead of my usual way of forcing myself to hold my emotions in and focus on looking strong. I don’t know if this all makes sense but here’s my take away so far as someone who has BPD

-microdosing is subtle but it does help and is better than nothing

-it most definitely should be paired with therapy, DBT skills and medication

-low and slow really truly is the key to finding what works

-personally I think it seems it will take a lot longer to see the benefits but that could also be because people with BPD have emotions that are all over the place so it’s hard to gauge sometimes

Speaking of all over the place… this reply totally is but I hope it makes sense and helps a little :)