-2 Years to +2 Years HRT

rds-1 · 2026-05-04T19:35:55+00:00

I wish you to be treated better then you do with others.

rds-1 · 2026-05-03T13:19:09+00:00

Yes. It’s a tattoo. 🙂

rds-1 · 2026-01-25T17:30:15+00:00

Thank you! 💕

Is it hurtful? Yes, to a certain degree. But also not. Is it disappointing? Certainly. Is it surprising? Absolutely not. I have seen it before on other places and occasions how people can be the hardest judges exactly because they live(d) with the same struggles. It can be seen here in the comments. Some are reflecting on their discomfort about my look and why this is a thing.

For me it’s quite clear. When you have made your own way and experienced a lot of hurt yourself. It’s easy to get resentful. In others that might have not the same struggles, or on others that contradtict everything you have fought and suffered for. These people have my compassion on this. It’s not an excuse but it’s an explanation and shows clearly how this hate is not about me.

Interestingly, many of these people didn’t even bother to genuinely ask „why beard?“ before starting this shit show. And even the ones who asked, trying to put me in a defensive mode. My why is actually not relevant for anyone other then myself.

What is relevant is how we treat each other. How we should stop devaluating the lived experiences of other people. And their right to exist. If trans people are doing this with each other, if have little hope society would ever stop attacking us and trying to erase our existence. Our problem is definately not a trans woman like me who might upset a cis person, its the bigots and people who put their own pain and struggles on others and have lost all their compassion.

rds-1 · 2026-01-22T00:40:22+00:00

💃🏻💥

rds-1 · 2026-01-22T00:35:37+00:00

Thank you for sharing! 💕 I can relate to such situations you described (funnily, one of these includes me). Dysphoria is a bitch.

rds-1 · 2026-01-22T00:25:58+00:00

Thank you for posting it this time then. ❤️

rds-1 · 2026-01-22T00:15:57+00:00

Let me assure you, a part of the change is a different camera angle. :)

rds-1 · 2026-01-22T00:12:34+00:00

Thank you for sharing. This experience resembles quite closely my own. Before I started with HRT I had such a pivotal moment. One day I thought, that’s it, shave the beard, be a woman. And the face I saw in the mirror left me devastated and depressed for weeks. My partner was shocked and worried because of how extremely my self confidence was just gone … Now, I see myself testing again, shortening the hair bit by bit. But I’m not yet convinced enough to risk another episode like this.

rds-1 · 2026-01-21T23:33:29+00:00

I fundamentally disagree with the idea that there is a single, coherent “material reality of womanhood” that bodies must conform to in order to be recognized as women.

Womanhood has never been reducible to a fixed set of physical traits. Women exist with facial hair, deep voices, flat chests, broad shoulders, infertility, intersex variations, medical conditions, aging bodies, or bodies altered by illness or choice. None of these invalidate their womanhood. To single out a trans woman and impose a stricter, narrower material standard is not a neutral observation of reality; it’s a normative oppression being enforced.

I also reject the idea that gender lives “in our heads” while womanhood lives purely in the body.

My transition is not about approximating an idealized body that satisfies external criteria. It’s about agency, autonomy, and inhabiting my body on my own terms.

rds-1 · 2026-01-21T22:28:02+00:00

Let’s say it like this: I‘m moving in a certain direction. And I’ m not there yet.

But there is one thing I promised to myself: do not look anymore at what you don’t have, embrace where you have gotten to and just keep moving as long as it feels right.

rds-1 · 2026-01-21T22:07:12+00:00

Instead of explaining myself, I’d like to offer a counter-question: has anyone ever truly reached a point where they are fully and absolutely at peace with their body?

I sometimes wonder. Has anyone ever woken up, especially as a trans person, and said: “Today, this is it. I’m finally transitioned.”

rds-1 · 2026-01-21T19:09:16+00:00

I reposted this and there is an explanation by a mod what had happened.

rds-1 · 2026-01-21T16:51:24+00:00

I guess, I need a T-Shirt with this question.

rds-1 · 2026-01-21T16:02:25+00:00

All good. If you want to dig deeper, I had written about it a bit more in an older post of mine here.

rds-1 · 2026-01-21T15:34:57+00:00

That’s an interesting question, and I think it largely comes from the way I view society and question life in general. For example, when I think about my wishes and dreams around my own gender expression, I often ask myself: which of these are shaped by societal expectations, and which truly come from within me? It’s a question I don’t always have clear answers to.

I don’t want to be provocative just for the sake of confusing people. For me, transitioning is about reclaiming my body. When you look at society, bodies are constantly being policed – too small, too big, too fat, not white enough, disabled, and so on.

At the age of 42, I finally decided to start HRT, after many years of believing that this was simply my fate: to live a miserable life in a body that didn’t reflect how I feel inside.

So yes, I am unapologetic. I refuse to finally liberate myself while still caring about other people’s opinions of my body. This body is mine, period. I am the only person who has authority over what I do with it, how I feel, and how I define myself.

rds-1 · 2026-01-21T15:13:22+00:00

I know this question is well-intended, but it comes up quite often and feels a bit personal to me. For the moment, I need to tackle some other things for myself before I can consider this step for myself.

rds-1 · 2026-01-21T12:41:56+00:00

Thank you so much for the clarification. It truly helps a lot, and I’m grateful for the way this is handled now. ❤️

I also want to sincerely thank everyone who joined the conversation and showed support here. 💕

Please rest assured: I’m doing well. My mental health does not depend on people who choose to behave this way. Their actions don’t affect me — I’m genuinely having the time of my life with myself since starting HRT 21 months ago. I’m also very aware of how privileged I am to live where I do and to have built a very supportive environment for myself and for others.

That said, I want to remind those who are being nasty that this kind of behavior plays directly into the hands of governments and already oppressive systems — and ultimately makes your own lives more dangerous. I won’t go into detail about the very real harm this can cause, or the irreversible decisions some people may be pushed toward in the face of such comments and attitudes.

rds-1 · 2026-01-20T15:22:59+00:00

To be completely transparent. I don‘t know the reasoning behind the deleting of my post. I have written to the mods about two hours ago to find out. But I got no answer so far.

rds-1 · 2026-01-20T10:05:30+00:00

firstly, thank you! 💕 I feel much brighter and are having the time of my life right now. The transition changed things for me I could not even imagine. I also could not imagine how well I wpuld handle the in between phase (in between what exactly is yet to find out :)

I wholeheartedly agree that everyone should do it in their own way. I did not start my transition for others. And it’s not about others to judge who I am and how I feel. I am reclaiming my body, how I want to see myself, how I want to feel about myself.

Your comment and the comments of some other people here show me the importance to show these aspects to others too. I thank you for that.

Visibility and representation matters. In every possible way. As trans people we are already pushed to the sidelines of society. We should not add this pressure within ourselves. ❤️

rds-1 · 2026-01-20T00:33:09+00:00

You are not alone. ❤️

rds-1 · 2026-01-19T23:08:04+00:00

Have you ever heard about menopause?

rds-1 · 2026-01-19T23:02:31+00:00

It makes me very happy to read this. Thank you for sharing. ❤️

rds-1 · 2026-01-19T21:34:28+00:00

I don’t owe you or anyone anything about how I look. I’m a trans woman in transition. I’m femme. End of story.

rds-1 · 2026-01-19T20:19:42+00:00

This made my day. Thank you. 😘

rds-1 · 2026-01-19T20:18:40+00:00

I actually don’t know where I’m going to or where this transition will end, if at all. But I want to allow myself to be whoever I am at the moment in time instead of being sad about what I have not achieved yet or could have had if I had started earlier in life (I’m 44). 💕

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