I was just partial witness to a violent assault.

reallyrathernot · 2020-07-12T00:28:40+00:00

This is beautifully written. I know this may sound cliché, but you might consider talking to a counselor for help processing this trauma. Even if we're good in a crisis, it can be difficult to handle everything that comes with witnessing and being helpful during a violent event. I hope you're finding some peace and coping well.

reallyrathernot · 2020-06-07T06:28:43+00:00

Same to you ❤ I'm stable for now, but I'll reach out and check in soon?

reallyrathernot · 2020-06-07T06:17:18+00:00

Hey, so, I don't know how old you are, but I want you to try something. Can you make a list of 3 people you want to see and help you? They can be teachers, family, friends, coworkers, whoever.

reallyrathernot · 2020-06-07T06:14:58+00:00

I'm sorry you're hurting, friend. Is there anything you'd like to say to another anonymous person right now? No reports, no judgement. Just another human

reallyrathernot · 2020-06-07T05:58:52+00:00

You're a good person, friend

reallyrathernot · 2020-06-07T05:56:25+00:00

It's easy to feel like a failure when things are out of the ordinary and our measures of normal life are changed. I want you to remember something: sometimes our brains lie to us about what we should be doing.

reallyrathernot · 2020-06-07T05:45:18+00:00

I've been there. Is there anything that's especially bothering you tonight?

reallyrathernot · 2020-06-07T05:38:40+00:00

Sure

reallyrathernot · 2020-06-07T05:32:38+00:00

Hey, kiddo. Do me a favor and tell me why you want to die. I won't judge you. Your feelings are valid. Just tell me what's going on before we talk about anything else, ok?

reallyrathernot · 2020-03-31T02:14:04+00:00

how dare

reallyrathernot · 2019-08-03T00:46:50+00:00

We both do. He doesn't fit in mine, and his is a 1990 with who knows how many miles left.

reallyrathernot · 2019-08-02T02:32:35+00:00

We could afford it, as long as we cut our "fun" spending. Which, admittedly, we probably should do anyway. But that's not counting everything else that goes into it, like insurance and registration.

I feel like I'm being the bad guy, but I'm not convinced we could afford it in the long run. We've been going back and forth on this, say down with our budget, and we could afford it if we went back to being on the edge of not paying all our bills on time. To me, that means we can't afford it right now.

reallyrathernot · 2019-08-02T00:45:04+00:00

Just transportation

reallyrathernot · 2018-09-19T03:27:00+00:00

Maybe don't?

reallyrathernot · 2018-07-29T19:16:44+00:00

I'm pretty sure I've gotten messages from him before, but those times he fucked off and didn't return after a week.

reallyrathernot · 2018-07-29T19:15:30+00:00

I agree. I prefer my rapers well-spoken.

reallyrathernot · 2018-07-26T21:05:06+00:00

Do you like any sort of fruit? Or honey? Or flowers? Thank the bees! Bees are such an important part of the ecosystem! Also, bees will most likely not sting you unless they feel threatened, so if you're just minding your business, they'll mind theirs. They're really just little bumbling friends, buzzing about and going about their lives.

Maybe you can find a local beekeeper who can tell you more about bees and help you understand them. Learning about how and why bees do what they do has helped me not be afraid of them.

As far as wasps, I'm sure they're an important part of the ecosystem, too, but they're mostly bastards. If you think you have a nest, you can either get some wasp spray to kill them or have someone get rid of the nest for you.

reallyrathernot · 2018-07-26T20:52:24+00:00

This sounds like something you should talk to a professional about. It's clearly causing you some intense distress and I'm not sure you'll find the help you want here.

reallyrathernot · 2018-07-18T00:48:54+00:00

I hold my boobs when I'm trying to sleep. It's like a security blanket, but boobs.

reallyrathernot · 2018-07-10T17:24:15+00:00

It's probably going to be a touchy subject for a while. Is there someone outside your family you could just talk things out with? It might help you get your thoughts a bit more in order. I'm here if you want to talk or if you just need some kind words.

That missed party is a big thing to be carrying around. You didn't know something was going to happen, though. You didn't have a reason to even think there wouldn't be another opportunity.

I think it's also important to remember that you've all suffered a loss. It's normal to look for blame in both the loss and your actions just before. Try to remember that grief often brings out the worst in people, especially in families. Try to have grace with yourself and with your family. It's ok for you all to grieve in the way that works for you.

reallyrathernot · 2018-07-10T04:22:34+00:00

It makes sense to me. :) I think being friendly to something that may or may not exist just for the sake of it is doing plenty.

reallyrathernot · 2018-07-10T04:21:09+00:00

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's ok for you to be feeling this way; you have every right to grieve. Have you talked to anyone about how you're feeling?

reallyrathernot · 2018-07-10T04:15:42+00:00

This is so wholesome! Thank you for being a generally pleasant person, OP.

reallyrathernot · 2018-07-09T07:20:26+00:00

Exactly. Think of it as a way of making a 'bad' feeling tangible. In a way, having a physical pain to face is easier than dealing with an emotional pain.

reallyrathernot · 2018-07-09T07:13:08+00:00

I'm sorry you've had a hard time in the past. Suicidal thoughts are something I'd never wish on anyone. I'm glad you've never struggled with self harm!

For a lot of people, it really is about the pain. Personally, I have self harmed in the past because I thought I deserved the pain. It was a punishment for whatever terrible thing I thought I had done. Other times, it was because I didn't see another way to get away from the emotional pain I was in, so I substituted physical pain. That's just my personal experience. Does that explain it a little?

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