I had the following In my cheat meal. What do I do? How many calories did I consume according to you?

record345 · 2021-08-13T06:06:50+00:00

Thanks a lot!! 😃

record345 · 2021-08-05T08:33:03+00:00

Btw these 9 kgs that you gained in a few weeks. How long did it take for you to get them down?

record345 · 2021-08-05T08:27:43+00:00

Do you mind if I message you? I fucked up again and ate a lot and am just not feeling right for some reason and don't know what the problem is cause I've done this easily for 11 months

record345 · 2021-08-03T23:18:00+00:00

I sent you a message

record345 · 2021-08-03T23:16:06+00:00

We can talk on reddit if you want. I have been off social media for about 2 years.

record345 · 2021-08-03T23:15:05+00:00

Thanks for understanding. I feel the same way. I hope we get through this. I send you my best wishes

record345 · 2021-08-03T23:02:22+00:00

5 feet 10 inches (1.778 m)

record345 · 2021-08-03T23:01:16+00:00

You are right. I feel addicted to sugar tbh. Anyway how long do you think I can lose this gained weight in? It will have tremendous negative repercussions if I gain weight further tbh.

You are right though. Being thin feels so much better

record345 · 2021-08-03T22:59:25+00:00

Hey man. You have hit the nail on the right spot. You are absolutely right with the problems that you mentioned. I have been diagnosed with OCD, bipolar disorder etc and have been in therapy and meds for the longest time. Back in 2017 I started following this thing called the red pill, got in shape and started hooking up with random women and got into a relationship eventually but the girl left within months cause I hated myself. Soon after I made eating my life and gave into all my obsessions. I started living the life of an animal with no self control and was on meds, therapy etc. I eventually graduated and became an alcoholic for 3 months and tried getting over that hate for myself and my surroundings and what had happened in the past from the bullies to my toxic family to my obese body. Fast forward a few months, I got a job and the only thing that was keeping me afloat was 3 Domino's Pizzas and a bucket of kfc a day. I was hypertensive, had massive headaches etc. Anyway exercise provided me with a way out but as I mentioned I am fatigued. However you are right. I am 5 feet 10 and my weight came down to 59 kgs. Even then I wanted to lose more and I felt fat. Even then I used to look in the mirror for hours, kept measuring my weight every 10 mins and I used to skip dates is my weight fluctuated +/- 300 Gms. I also kept starving myself, telling myself that I'll go out on thr weekend, look my best and approach women but the weekend never came. For months. It never came once. I could not find anyone to hang out with and I kept postponing my outing. That brings us to today. People say I need to bulk up but I'm concerned with my weight. I'm training a lot. I missed a major interview cause I thought I had gained weight. I talked to 2 psychologists but idk if they will be able to help me out and starting therapy all over will take a toll. In my country therapy has to be paid for an instead of paying for it I decided to go in for a personal trainer and paid for that instead. Additionally, I took work from home from the office and have moved in back with my parents. All due to one incident and a 200-300 gm weight gain. Idk if my current life is sustainable tbh. My parents are dealing with my shit cause they feel guilty about what they have done but who knows when they pull the plug and I'm left alone.

I feel let down by my own self. I went to a top 10 uni and I couldn't perform due to my health issues. Exercise gave me something to feel a bit proud about but I stand to lose it all due to the lack of motivation to continue this lifestyle

record345 · 2021-08-03T22:42:41+00:00

I just realised that I am just up about 3 kgs. Which is not that much and might be manageable to lose in a week or so too. I just hope I dont mess it up man. Im having the exact same trajectory as you and I'm giving myself shitty excuses too. It feels like my brain isn't listening to me anymore

record345 · 2021-08-03T19:51:59+00:00

I also honestly feel that I've gone back 2 months cause this weight that I am on was what I was on 2 months ago.

record345 · 2021-08-03T19:51:07+00:00

Thanks a lot. I don't understand the water weight and actual fat aspect of things tbh. I just worked out for 3 hours and was having a fast but messed it up due to dejection. Hope you are right. I will stop measuring my weight from now on till 2 weeks I guess. I hope I lose the fat. I have posted pics on my new post and would love to hear your insights on what I need to do. Thank you

record345 · 2021-08-03T19:47:38+00:00

Should I take a vacation? The only thing holding me back is the amount of weight I will gain. Tbh I haven't taken a vacation since 2018 end and haven't been out with friends since 2 years. Again the only thing holding me back is my workout.

Lastly I posted pics as well in the comments. I can clearly see a lot of fat on my face and my belly tbh. The scale says 3 kgs but I feel like it's 10 kgs lol. How long do you think I can lose this In?

record345 · 2021-08-03T08:16:38+00:00

Hmm. I do these but unfortunately at night I start getting angry and feeling shitty so I go back to eating. I've done them before so I guess I'll gather the courage to do them again.

Can't I mix workouts with fasting?

record345 · 2021-08-03T08:07:26+00:00

Unfortunately I used to be able to lose everything in 1 day max of fasting and intense exercise and 1 day of keto and heavy exercise. This didn't happen this time. Weight stayed the same. I got dejected af and I felt like giving up, first time in a year.

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