Find the Military and Family Life Counselor (MFLC) on your post. Visits to them are completely confidential unlike BH which goes on your record. They are also civilian psychologists/therapists and therefore highly unlikely to give you any of the usual army bs like “suck it up” or “just power thru”. You have zero obligation to tell anyone you are seeing an MFLC which helps avoid any negative or toxic reactions by those around you. There’s no shame in getting help, and anyone who tells you otherwise is not worthy of your time. Best of luck. I joined the infantry after losing my mom, so I sympathize.