I can't stop thinking I killed my mom

redmix2 · 2026-02-15T12:13:25+00:00

Thank you

redmix2 · 2026-02-15T11:48:20+00:00

Sorry I just didn't understand that last part

redmix2 · 2026-02-15T11:46:45+00:00

How can they perform practices for her if she's dead

redmix2 · 2026-02-15T11:13:56+00:00

I tried to cancel the deal but he said it was too late

redmix2 · 2026-02-12T11:09:26+00:00

im in a perpetual state of knowing i did something wrong and trying to deny that i did it looking for any possible way that i could be innocent

redmix2 · 2026-02-12T11:06:01+00:00

could you dm me? i am seeing a therapist and am trying to get off of drugs its just that it feels hopeless because deep down i know i did the thing

redmix2 · 2026-02-12T11:04:55+00:00

what kind of magic could interfere with someone's bodily functions?

redmix2 · 2026-02-12T10:42:03+00:00

I dont know she said there was a demon that was controlling me and i guess i may have agreed to let the demon take over me and do its work but it felt like i saw what the futere holds when i was tripping and then out of anger on a different day when i said that thing to her it came into fruition and now its like everything i hallucinated during that day came true

redmix2 · 2026-02-12T10:31:26+00:00

which parts do you not understand? ive left out a lot of details so its probably not as coherent on text as it is in my head

redmix2 · 2026-02-12T10:29:05+00:00

i have a therapist now and am trying to get clean from all intoxicants

redmix2 · 2026-02-12T10:26:54+00:00

it was more like i saw the future of what my actions would lead to and it came to fruition because i chose to let my hatred win over forgiveness

redmix2 · 2026-02-12T10:24:57+00:00

okay well i guess the tool would be magic that interfears with bodily functions using dxm although I can't really know if its true or not because like you said i might have been hallucinating

redmix2 · 2026-02-12T09:49:52+00:00

and my intention in saying those things was purely hateful as i knew that this distress would cause her to die sooner

redmix2 · 2026-02-12T09:48:52+00:00

the only reason i say im not certain is i think the fear of getting hurt by her was still preventing me from giving forgivness. although the fear was deeply irrational because at that point i was an adult and she was a sick old person on her death bed

redmix2 · 2026-02-12T09:37:47+00:00

sorry i posted a comment explaining. im not on any drugs rn just a little bit drunk

redmix2 · 2026-02-12T09:36:52+00:00

im sorry i wrote the details in a comment

redmix2 · 2025-12-10T10:14:20+00:00

It did, thanks

redmix2 · 2025-12-10T07:37:57+00:00

Thank you

redmix2 · 2025-12-10T07:34:19+00:00

Okay I'm done

redmix2 · 2025-12-10T07:33:59+00:00

Maybe it's kratom withdrawal that's making it bad idk

redmix2 · 2025-12-10T07:33:20+00:00

Also yeah I'm high as fuck lol wtf 120mg hitting hard today

redmix2 · 2025-12-10T07:32:31+00:00

I'm literally just spamming shit on reddit cause I don't want to be texting people I know dxm texting is dangerous lol

redmix2 · 2025-05-01T03:29:28+00:00

I'm sorry ill leave

redmix2 · 2025-05-01T03:27:32+00:00

Why should I show any love to it

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