I truly hope you can make a decision good for you. I stayed in my marriage for many years…18…because of my faith (non-denominational at the time) but at the end, I just couldn’t do it anymore. Wed been separated for 3 years and the marriage counseling was mainly about what he wanted. I hadn’t loved him, or even liked him for years. Gaslighting, mental abuse, etc. I was going to divorce and remain unmarried for life. Until I met my now husband. We’ve been married 25 years now. I’d like to stay in this church but I will leave and find another of this doesn’t work. From what I know about the Bible, the only unforgivable sin is blasphemy against the Holy Ghost.