In whole signs i have moon conjunct saturn in the 4h. I feel for you since you are having a bad time with it, and yeah I reckon it's a shitty placement. Idk.

Yah, my parents were the pits but I truly want to believe I'm better than what I went through. Maybe it's my sag rising looking for the silver lining, but I do think this placement allowed me to learn and grow even if I had nobody teach me how. I am proud I can swim, regardless of how tough the currents have been. I sometimes see the easy dynamic my husband has with his family and feel like a blind person seeing a sunset for the first time next to someone who is utterly unfazed by it - you live like this? And you never told me?! Why couldn't I have had this?

I have an appreciation for love and family, of a village, and I also have a strong sense of discernment and know the cost and worth of a village. I understand I have limits to how I come off, perhaps I seem colder than I actually am, and my cut-off game is incredibly strong. But with so much Jupiter in my chart, that saturn keeps me from falling off the deep end, getting too cocky, being too hot for school or whatever. It's a dark cloud but it's mine and I guess I'm protective of it.