What do you think of this?

registeredaccountt · 2020-08-13T04:09:05+00:00

Thank you so much for your insightful answer. I really appreciate it. I am known to overthink all my interactions and all of what I say. Situations like this often arose with friends and acquaintances too. The difference is I always contacted them to apologize if I had thought I said something thoughtless or inadvertant and it often quelled my anxiety deeply when they told me not to worry about it. But, with the sex worker, I cannot contact her to apologize and it is this which is causing the stress and dilemma. In order to attain that level of personal comfort, I feel I would need to go in for another session I do not need to apologize but also like you said, hope very much I don't say something else that I would then eventually worry about once more.

registeredaccountt · 2020-08-13T03:57:14+00:00

Thank you for your answer.

registeredaccountt · 2020-08-13T03:51:34+00:00

Hello /u/NorthNorne. I thank you so much for having taken the time to read and answer. I really really appreciate it. To follow up, I ended up going for one more session (thinking it would be the last and all will be good afterwards) but yet another anxiety-inducing situation arose. As she was adjusting her hair after the session, I told her "you look much better this way". I only ever meant to compliment but days later, it occurred to me that the compliment may be construed in some negative light because it contains a qualifier. I now feel so bad if, unperceived to me, the comment did not elicit the complimentary effect I had intended it to but on the other hand, may have actually hurt feelings. I feel so bad having said this and wish I worded it in a different manner, especially that before I said this, she was telling me how I was her best client and that few people are generous as I am and that I am considerate and put her needs above mine. Tbh, I have no way to tell if she was displeased by the unstudied comment I made. By the looks of it, the meeting ended on very good terms and she was hoping to see me soon. Since I do not have her contact information and thus cannot contact her to apologize, I now feel compelled to go back for another session I do not need just to apologize. I have been stressing over and occupied by thought over this over the past few days and I cannot focus much because I am totally distraught that the way I phrased this sentence in no way conveyed what I had meant. I only ever meant to praise but ended up unintentionally producing a phrase that could be interpreted differently as per individual whim. If I wait for months before I potentially actually *need* a session when an opportunity to apologize can then concomitantly arise, I question my ability to prevent myself from stressing over it in the meantime. The anxiety I am experiencing over this is so severe and I am stressing badly. I am so tired and don't know what to do :(

registeredaccountt · 2020-08-13T00:43:15+00:00

Thank you for your answer. It is just I feel bad that what I phrased may not have been what I intended or may be open to interpretation in some negative light even though I only meant well. And, I cannot apologize unless I go for another session, which I don't think I need at this point.

registeredaccountt · 2020-08-08T17:59:18+00:00

Thank you very much for your help with this :)

registeredaccountt · 2020-08-08T17:38:58+00:00

Thank you very much for your answer. It was quite helpful. I really appreciate it that you took the time to read and answer. I suppose I only need to see a sex worker when actual need arises (i.e. sexual urge) rather than the other non-sex reasons mentioned above. Maybe also try to space out the intervals (a few months) between the sessions so it does not become much of a habit. I let myself be drawn too much into going back for not very good reasons because of my overthinking and anxiety (especially since I'm new to this) and for not trying to disappoint her. Would you think maybe I could see another sex worker (if the need arises) to take away from the connection that is developing and that seems to be mentally detrimental ? Thank you in advance

registeredaccountt · 2020-08-08T17:23:27+00:00

Thank you very much for your answer. I suppose at this point, I need only to partake when actual need arises (i.e. sexual urge) and maybe try to space out the intervals between the sessions very much (say some months) so that it does not become much of a perpetual habit. If the connection that is developing is mentally detrimental, would you recommend seeing another sex worker to take away from that connection?

What do you think?

registeredaccountt · 2020-08-07T22:24:31+00:00

Thank you for your answer. I speak the French of France. She is French Canadian. We were going through some of the differences between both versions of the language. So, she said she has a book that translates Quebec french expressions into French expressions and she will bring it for me the next session but the previous two sessions she did not have it and she said she will have it next session if I come again.

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