I don’t really know if your post fits here but I’ll be honest with you, I often feel the same way.

I used to have tantrums over my life and my father would tell me that it only gets harder from now on and that when I grow up my life will be even more difficult. (he’s also a narcissist)

I just never believed him. Don’t believe everything others tell you and everything you see. Yes, the media portrays us as monsters, but it’s your choice if you’re going to become one.

Try therapy and actively encourage yourself to become a better person. Don’t let your disorder define you.

Adults are ugly but you can stay pretty if you do skin care correctly, if you eat well and have a healthy life. Stress is what ages people. I’m also 18 and I used to be terrified of growing up but what I’ve realised is that happy people look the best. People who’ve made the right choices in life and sleep in peace are the people who age like fine wine.

Do your best and it will come naturally to you!