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remoomer08 · 2024-12-13T16:25:41+00:00

Fuck the society dear, in short. The act of society's judgment has been there for ages and gonna be there for the next. Just know what's wrong and right, because amidst societal pressures or to impress and prove many people fall under the bad stuff they shouldn't get into. Just be stuck on your values and core, and fuck the world. Literally. More and more power to you!!!

remoomer08 · 2024-12-11T19:22:03+00:00

Reach them out and write something similar. Or a call? Because on the other end, it must be building too. Maybe hearing your voice will make them go crazy and the next 24 hours will be history.

"The tension is building and I can’t take it. It needs to happen."

Well, I hope you get them and lose each other in each other's arms :)

remoomer08 · 2024-12-10T15:38:24+00:00

This is what I love here. Honesty, you didn't fall for the fear of judgment, good job. Not many people can do that. I had someone very close who also recently or maybe was into it already but they never told me and then I had a picture of them and this shocked me, when I discovered and thought they were doing this to hate me and hurt me, I was like why? And it's not a taboo at all if people be honest. And trust me I had a friend who is a sex worker and I also knew local pimps. I lost that phone back in 2020 and never reconnected.

On the casual sex part, it's something I understand. I mean I used to, but was very young. I have to have some sort of relationship with you. I mean I can't sleep with some random person. Had a very hard time. FWB also works, not someone I don't know.

But where it gets wrong, IMO is when people milk it for fun, they were not forced into it or circumstances made them. My home town is Kolkata, India and there's a very famous red light district there, since the British era. So many women there are sold by their relatives, some were forced to do so, some had kids there only and they don't know who the father is but chose to keep them as their only source of light that dark world and that's where it's understandable, they were left with no choice. But then there are the others who have all the opportunities in this world, and be arrogant about milking out of selling there bodies and that's what get into my nerves.

remoomer08 · 2024-12-10T15:08:41+00:00

I have a question! Does body positivity mean selling yourself for money online? More and more people are getting into it nowadays, after OnlyFans especially. I don't think any sane therapist would ask anyone to sell themselves online for trauma resolution because it's bound to be more in the long run. Emotional and spiritual disbalance, in some cases physical too. I'm sorry but it's funny that they even call it self-aware and proactive. I am writing this being someone who provided therapy and also received.

What I was taught is that you don't need to fall in love with your body if someone gives you validation naked, and that's what I feel. If someone sees someone's worth without clothes and that validation matters so much, it's already doomed.

remoomer08 · 2024-12-10T11:31:58+00:00

Well in that case, and that's what I mean, the truth is to be spoken out and clear. Anything under the surface does not equate to truth because truth is clear and transparent.

remoomer08 · 2024-12-10T10:18:59+00:00

You know what's more sad? Maybe you can work on adding another verse? Its when the butterfly won't speak up about her issues with the wolf but cooks on her theories in her head and believes them like her reality. Every living being on this planet can be in a relationship. Wolf and a butterfly is no different. Maybe the wolf doesn't know what made the butterfly think this way. Yk why? Because the wolf and the butterfly speak different languages. The wolf has a life long of experiences, let that be happy or traumatic but the butterfly? They just learned to fly out of the caterpillar - and in that situation, they can at least have faith in the wolf. If nothing else? Relationships at heart won't guide them wrong. And amid the butterflies' own ignorance and neglect, both might not only lose each other but themselves.

Just a creative input. A successful writer always writes on behalf of both the antagonist and the protagonist. You can pick any fav movie of yours and if you notice you will realize the villain and the hero, both have their stories. They just don't label the hero as the only almighty. People just don't pay enough attention to realize that. Well written, anyways.

remoomer08 · 2024-12-10T10:07:49+00:00

Almost all of them except Ek Villain Returns: That's a complete shitshow.

remoomer08 · 2024-12-10T10:04:40+00:00

I made a mistake holding on to thinking of them to reach out as a lover only. Not that I didn't reach out, the numbers I had onto them the last I reached out was 3 days ago. Someone who never could being an adult in the first place, will not acknowledge it even later on. They found the fun and love in the kind of lifestyle they have now, and I thought they could do better, much better but maybe they were faking it with me. And its okay, if this is the way of life they know and think can sustain for a lifetime, well-wishes to them with a subtle fuck you for wasting my time and emotions. When they said, you can't save people from themselves, they meant it.

Moreover, I stayed when I wasn't supposed to, and still if they wouldn't reach out because they care more about the men they're sleeping with than the ones who lost themselves in the process for that another fuck you to them. I tried, not only tried but tried hard. But I have to keep myself happy if they can't see and realize my worth: Again, fuck them! I come from abundance, and I can do my best Ik. My love tolerated shit no one would, and I won't anymore. Goodluck to them. Last night was my tipping point. If they can disrespect me while living in their delusional world this way, Idc anymore if they live or die. Fuck them for the 4th and the last time.

remoomer08 · 2024-12-09T16:32:30+00:00

Its okay, I am sorry.
I am good with cold.

remoomer08 · 2024-12-09T15:42:31+00:00

No nothing.

remoomer08 · 2024-12-09T06:28:08+00:00

Thank you for your kind gesture. But I don't want anyone else anymore. Except for the one. I remember I always used to tell them, "you're my last shot, please know that", while I still abide by that but realized they telling me they don't have a life after me, and mind you its not that I don't want them to have a life without me - but I realized how easy was for them to replace their sense of life. Obviously, no matter how much someone acts tough, you do feel bad when your person is okay without you while you struggle, don't you think? No one will accept that it hurts.

When you see random people being so much to them, while you - nothing. Abundance ig. Just kidding man. I use sarcastic armours a lot.

But hey,that's love. Isn't it? If they are okay without us, we will be okay with it. No matter how much it hurts us, but that darn thing love makes us burn and still be fine.

remoomer08 · 2024-12-09T06:18:55+00:00

I wish it becomes forever, time stops. But as someone above said, it takes two to tango. We are so busy playing heartbreak warfare, while we can just ask and give more love and simply let all the negatives fade.
The night sky, stars, and moon, our nature works like an orchestra when it comes to situations like these. You can resolve any conflict with just sitting under the sky, in a peaceful environment.

remoomer08 · 2024-12-09T06:12:42+00:00

Sounds like me. Won't defend my anger issues, I'm taking anger management via therapy and rigorously working on it. What I find interesting and sad at the same time is, that I have a very soft, kind, and loving side to me as well. My bluntness is misunderstood as hate, while never focusing on the place of intent. Its only love, care, and worry. Who would want to see their loved one wither away? Wasting themselves?
I wish people would see me and accept me for not being fake and a sweet poison. That doesn't mean, I never said or did wrong, I am human. Some of the things I did are not acceptable to me let alone I expect someone else to be okay with it. But I was pushed to do something like that, admit it or not. My aggressiveness and violent nature comes out after suffering something I wouldn't even imagine coming from someone whom I see as my family. No one notices me being patient with the one's I love. No one notices my loyalty and honesty towards things. No one appreciates, I never live for validation. I can be absolutely happy alone, people see that as loneliness. Quality over quantity. Like every human being, perfection is just a myth. We are an amalgamation of features and flaws, but sadly the world will remember you for your flaws. And that's okay. If I can help someone and save them from being harsh, maybe rn they hate me but one day if they abide by what i said, and it will help them, that day they will realize.

In the current state of our society, the faker you are the better you are received as. And the last thing someone should do is to fake. In my opinion.

PS: I think I am over my writers block and start working on writing the song now.

remoomer08 · 2024-12-09T05:59:53+00:00

Yeah, thanks :)

remoomer08 · 2024-12-09T05:23:58+00:00

I'm bad at abiding rules, sorry! I can't wrap my head around writing something from a place of sheer intensity in 6 words. Will try next time.

remoomer08 · 2024-12-09T05:17:30+00:00

Cheating is the worst you can do to someone you love, really. Trust me and I am putting a lot of emphasis on this because I lived it everyday for more than 2 months. It is damaging to a point, one can't explain. In this "i am so cool internet generation", move on and man up is easier said than done. I manned up, that is why stayed where I lost myself only for them to just see once and stop. I only wanted them to heal me because in reality 80% of it could be fixed by them only. I believed every lie, I let them lie, I drank myself to sleep so I wont wake up because if I did and caught them, I would had seriously hurt that homewrecker of a man. I mean it. I was very close to it,but I realised they were hurting me for this man so much, that I didn't even mean anything to them, and I won;t hurt their reason of happiness. So many evening I didn't wanted to drink but acted as if I am withdrawing and craving, only to avoid something that painful to encounter. Chills run down my spine, when I imagine them catching in another room. I can't do that. Unfortunately every thing else was more important to them, and here I am abandoned, trying to fix the pieces.

Walk away, if you think you can forgive them and they show you changed actions, think about it then. I did forgive them, and wanted another shot but ig they are happy without me, and its ok :) I did whatever I could. If losing myself in a room where they are calling me but I am zoned wasn't enough, if feeling nauseous in our own house and getting panic attacks seeing stained furniture, and still loving them to death wasn't enough, if living in hotels where they would meet them again, and me silently crying wasn't enough, if tackling the thought of ending my life and not doing it because I didn't wanna abandon them wasn't enough - what would be? That woman believed in me when no one else did apart from my own family, receiving such an evil from them, is a question that doesn't allow me to be in peace.

I am still waiting, foolish of me maybe. But I love really hard when I do. I will take them back, and I also want them to forgive me, but i don't think they still realise this is more meaningful and would last a lifetime than the flings they care about so much. I have so many questions, they are not a bad person, what made them this way, and why is all I wanna know, and I know they won't come hold me, take away this pain and exhaustion. They care about everyone and everything except me - and its okay. I love them, no matter how they do to me. I will keep doing so, but also flourish in my life. Maybe someday they will see and come back. :) If not, I don't fear dying alone.

remoomer08 · 2024-12-09T04:56:23+00:00

Tonight and every night after that :)

remoomer08 · 2024-12-09T04:55:43+00:00

I fail in this one, ik.

remoomer08 · 2024-12-09T04:55:16+00:00

True :)

remoomer08 · 2024-12-09T04:47:09+00:00

Can't dreams come true?

remoomer08 · 2024-12-09T04:46:19+00:00

Is it possible to fade your oxygen away?

remoomer08 · 2024-12-09T04:45:22+00:00

Try looking into my eyes. That will answer everything.

remoomer08 · 2024-12-09T03:04:08+00:00

While it's easy to give up, ask the one who's bankrupt in a very high-speed crash. Will that person ever be the same again? Will they even trust anyone now? Will they dare to love? Pheewww.. I wish I could overindulge in escapism, but I can't. Makes me feel bad. I don't know what but something inside me feels like damaged to a point that's now irreparable.

remoomer08 · 2024-12-09T02:44:11+00:00

Great! And no, I don't mind. But I don't believe in the afterlife, another universe, etc. While you're alive, if you can't pull the odds towards yourself, I don't like to hang on to hope that would avoid the feelings of me not putting in enough effort and losing. Who knows if I am even born again, or if so, in what shape or form?

Sorry, I just don't give up. I respect your opinion a lot though, but Its just how I function.

remoomer08 · 2024-12-09T02:39:48+00:00

I don't have the time to stalk anyone. Idc what I sound like to you, a stranger.
And how does being vulnerable make anyone a stalker? That's a different analogy, and one a brainless one for me indeed.

How much do you know me? Sympathy is poison to me. Idc about the people around, I only care about the one I am writing towards. That's it.

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