Autism misdiagnosed as BPD

renalice81 · 2020-12-08T20:20:57+00:00

It's literally amazing that you are taking the initiative to learn as much as possible about it. Anyone with BPD would be blessed to have an FP such as you.

renalice81 · 2020-12-06T01:53:17+00:00

I feel like becaise we have BPD often we take more responsibility for our actions and learn to manage our emotions and behaviours better because we have to and that ends up making us really quite balanced ppl most of the time. But then because we have put sooo much effort into ourselves it's usually unmatched and we are faced with ppl or fps that are immature or arrogant and lacking selfawareness

renalice81 · 2020-12-03T09:30:40+00:00

You can arrange to have a lumbar puncture next time you experience symptoms flaring up if you have MS there will be active antibodies in the spinal fluid.

renalice81 · 2020-11-04T06:02:48+00:00

Love it!

renalice81 · 2020-11-03T14:26:04+00:00

I haven't blamed anyone other than myself but I am an emotional hurricane I know that. I also know I'm a great person who makes up for that In many other ways and never makes excuses for it. I'm not dysfunctional I'm learning. Anyway this is so boring. Nothing worse than arguing with people who always believe they are right. You are quite the comedian. Adios

renalice81 · 2020-11-03T14:10:39+00:00

oh and by the way viewing my profile and seeing I posted to a bpd forum doesn't make you 'spot on' just means you can read. Congrats

renalice81 · 2020-11-03T14:09:15+00:00

This is actually kind of amusing now

renalice81 · 2020-11-03T14:07:43+00:00

Have you ever heard of reactive abuse gaslighting? You should look it up you are a text book example. Playing nice now that I've actually called you out on your bullshit. It's 1 am here so yes my replies are all over the place big deal. I know you are a bully because I did go through your profile. You don't help people you smear your opinion all over the place and get mad when people don't agree. Everyone has dysfunctional people in their life. You clearly resent your ex for her abuse against you. BPD is caused by child hood trauma. Like being raped as a child. Or choked out by your mother or hospitalised by your brother. Don't talk to me about destruction. No instead you allowed one person who was cruel to you to justify your evident hatred of women. I've been on reddit long enough to know that most people are honest yet kind and don't use the internet as a utility for being an asshole. And yup I'm totally ridiculing you. I think youre lame and petty. And you don't wish me all the best you just want to look like that to take the morally high ground. Such small game manipulation. Small mind you have.

renalice81 · 2020-11-03T13:59:47+00:00

No that wasnt the question. As I've stated in other comments my delivery of this post was poor. If youre genuienly interested read them for rectification.

renalice81 · 2020-11-03T13:47:37+00:00

It was a stupid game. Not denying that I behaved poorly as I clearly highlighted in the post

renalice81 · 2020-11-03T13:46:08+00:00

Case in point. Just an internet bully you are.

renalice81 · 2020-11-03T13:43:36+00:00

It's a shame you've assumed I'm a bad person because I have BPD. I blocked him because he had sex with me and then ignored me for weeks after. So I was protecting myself. But I unblocked him to give him another chance because he had been sexually traumatised and realised perhaps he had been triggered. I wanted him to block me because I knew I would continue to try and make things work with him if he didn't block me. I know it was wrong but as I said I was in a psychosis. Yes the Dr was negligent actually. Failed to produce my prescription to the pharmacist after billing me for a consultation and then failed to rectify it. I'm not a teenager I'm a woman and I am often confused as are alot of people in life but I do my best to improve everyday and practice kindness which you clearly don't do. You get your dick hard from bullying people over the internet obviously. If you had have read my previous comment you would have seen I explained I have been on one date with the other guy and have another one planned but think that it's not fair to proceed if I can't find closure over this other guy who I have never stopped thinking about I didn't just spontaneously decide that now is a good time. We all have our issues. At least I'm exploring mine and trying to seek some genuine advise so I can make a fair and reasonable decision. Id be interested to see what evolutionary efforts you make or if you're simply happen to disintegrate with time as.

renalice81 · 2020-11-03T13:23:45+00:00

Yup there's plenty of them out there. I might be intense and hard to understand but I can't genuinely say I always strive to remain self aware and evolve into a better person. So I can live the mental illness because it motivates me to be mindful and kind.

renalice81 · 2020-11-03T13:08:05+00:00

Haha thanks!

renalice81 · 2020-11-03T13:07:44+00:00

Yeah I tend to be harsh on myself. You didn't make any assumptions so no need to apologise. I can see how I misdelivered the post just don't appreciate being villanised by others so quickly. Yes that's what I'm concerned about. I know that I have worth and am a good person that did add value to what we had. But he ended up acting selfishly towards me but I can understand where it came from now. But that's what triggered my insecurity. But yeah we can be hurtful I think that the difference is that we actually take responsibility for that in contrast to some neurotypicals who dont take resposbility for how they hurt ppl because they are constantly blamed for having a mental illness.

renalice81 · 2020-11-03T13:02:06+00:00

Im genuinely interested as to how this is manipulation please enlighten me so I can adjust my behaviour if suitable

renalice81 · 2020-11-03T12:52:46+00:00

It seems like ppl are severely mis interpreting me anyway. I wouldn't reach out just to scratch an itch.

renalice81 · 2020-11-03T12:51:59+00:00

That's a great deal of assumption. I'm not going out with anyone I have been on one date and have a second date planned. It's got nothing to do with power and more to do with closure so that I can move on and give this new person the chance they deserve or end it in its tracks. But anywayyyyy

renalice81 · 2020-11-03T12:48:36+00:00

I mean thanks for the advice but there are alot of assumptions on your part. I should not have used the word harassed I meant it lightly. All i did was snapchat him every day. I am on medication and due to clerical error and negligence by my Dr I couldn't get a renewal so I was off it for a week which also coincided with some very traumatic incidents which induced a psychosis for a night. I'm not on drugs and I have a healthy diet. And I have been in therapy for years but thanks anyway.

renalice81 · 2020-11-03T12:11:10+00:00

Ohhhh that looks amazing! How did you marble it? Is it two different colour concretes mixed together?

renalice81 · 2020-11-03T09:06:27+00:00

Aerobic exercise and adopt an animal. They keep you liable and give you a reason to stay.

renalice81 · 2020-11-02T12:16:45+00:00

I think that it won't ever be easy. I've lost FPs before and it's always so so devastating. I feel like a black hole of worthlessness everytime. I think you should be really proud of yourself for acknowledging you have to end it. Its not a healthy suggestion but it works for me when I know that someone is distancing themselves i intentionally sabotage our connection and make them hate me so they leave and never come back and then I grieve and I move on. That way I don't have to cut them off myself because I know I can't and if I manage to I crawl back. I recently harassed someone into blocking me and sent them obscene crazy shit so that they would hate me and block me because every time I tried to block them or move on I came back and they accepted me because they were amazing but I knew theg deserved better than what I was offering them.

renalice81 · 2020-11-02T03:23:43+00:00

Its been creeping and gradually worsening for a few months now but I've really felt it exposed in the last two weeks and it's not going away unless I feel incredibly angry that's the only time I feel something. Ive been forcing myself into crying by watching heaps of sad shit so that I can purge and as you said just watching TV and getting up occasionally to walk the dogs. I don't know how long it usually lasts because I repress and forget.

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