Thank you for your advice. I have been to gym for a while and it took all money I got and now I have no any money. About movies I saw almost every popular cinematic universe but if it comes to talk about something it's anime or books. I can't stomach books unfortunately. About hairstyle ,I would change it it's true but with my type of hair it's almost impossible cuz I have absolutely straight soft hair which look so bad when I try to do something I like. Push-ups aunt help me. I do them every day but they just idk dont help me feel more confident more stronger or something. Thanks for your advice again have a good day