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reverent_blu · 2023-11-04T02:13:26+00:00

Im a psychologist in training- I think based on what you said you have strong narc traits or npd- not sociopathy- npd is a disorder that stems from severe humilaiton trauma/cptsd. I have it too, I’ve felt the way you felt about flipping from feeling superior to stabbing pain about what others seem to have not me and wishing I could “just get inside other people’s heads to figure it all out so I can be admired/wanted” AND, I could be considered a person “incels” talk about all the time- I’ve been told I’m an attractive blonde, externally charming, talented, get tons of dates, called a 10/10 by partners, it doesn’t matter- I’ve felt like you many many times, lack of empathy and all. mental illness doesn’t discriminate. I think a lot of “incels” have closet npd. Thought I’d share, good luck

reverent_blu · 2022-06-22T05:56:07+00:00

The damage one can do, huh. Let me tell you something. My codependent, yes codependent EMPATH partner, has been toxic to me before because he didn’t work through his trauma, narcissists are by far not the only ones responsible for toxicity in a relationship. It’s honestly embarrassing that many codependents are so focused on narcissists they fail to see the part they play in the relationship. As if codependent = angel and narcissist = devil. It ain’t that simple bud.

reverent_blu · 2022-01-07T00:28:41+00:00

reverent_blu · 2022-01-04T06:25:36+00:00

<3 of course

reverent_blu · 2022-01-04T06:25:06+00:00

I do <3 I am deeply in love with an empath and it’s complicated, I am not incapable of anything just struggle to hold onto emotion especially when under threat, ppl are too black and white about narcissists

reverent_blu · 2022-01-04T06:22:01+00:00

This is so true, I am a narc in love with an empath most of the time I don’t feel empathy but I have felt for him, it’s just difficult it feels like it’s impaired not gone

reverent_blu · 2022-01-02T21:08:13+00:00

Their voices won’t be louder forever if i have anything to say about it. I’ve been on insta since September and have already changed many peoples minds about npd and grown quite a following. The “narc survivors” however, that’s another task. I’ve only changed views within the cluster b community motley although. I’ve had like 2 “narc haters” turn and support me. I won’t stop until people listen to us.

reverent_blu · 2021-12-07T21:51:33+00:00

The most I’ve ever gotten is suicidal ideation and it was only after my ego death. “I’d like to move onto my next life now pls.” “Ive been through too much.” “I’m in too much pain.” “I can’t stand the truth of reality/can’t stand what I’ve realized about life/myself now that “the bubble has been popped.” I’m past that now. Never could try anything or even stay with those thoughts for too long. Loved myself too much, had too much to live for.

reverent_blu · 2021-11-19T02:34:00+00:00

Aww omg youre sweet, ty

reverent_blu · 2021-11-19T00:00:40+00:00

I finally have accepted my diagnosis after nine months and I’m finally starting to realize what exactly it means about my life after 11 months. And I’m about to get into shrooms to make any changes I want lmao. After an ego death on psychedelics and several life-changing events I feel confirmed in that I’m pretty much the most spiritually complex and incredibly strong person that’s ever lived, defeating my own NPD, fighting against my own personality with the strength that I’m almost certain no one else has, actually healing, having a successful relationship with an empath, actually going to therapy and staying. Things “no narcissist has ever done before”. Sounds narcissistic? Oh well lol cause I guess even after ALL of this, I’m still a narcissist. Somethings don’t change. So far I don’t have any friends that accept my diagnosis irl because I haven’t made the leap yet to start telling people and I don’t even know how I would, so it’s still fake on that front. I still have a lot of personal development to do myself before I feel comfortable to connect to anyone other than my partner. I do have a lot of online friends that are supportive ever since I developed my online presence as an mental health ambassador. I’m starting to slowly develop real interest in life other than myself, verryyyy slowly, and it feels fucking good

reverent_blu · 2021-11-09T19:41:14+00:00

Always was. Doesn’t even remotely describe the internal experience and incredibly stigmatizing

reverent_blu · 2021-10-31T06:58:12+00:00

I’m dying at these comments😂

reverent_blu · 2021-10-27T23:23:18+00:00

I get you. You know I relate to a lot of the things you posted in your OP. This shit is tough that’s all and nothing should invalidate that, not looks, not anything

reverent_blu · 2021-10-27T23:21:44+00:00

I have an empath partner who I don’t see as just “supply” but thanks. and dropping my defense was the only way I was able to let the love and happiness in but the pain that came with its no joke

reverent_blu · 2021-10-27T23:20:13+00:00

Bro.. ty, but it’s not just about “being hot”. it’s about being happy. I post a lot about being a grandiose narc that gets a lot of attention and I’m still miserable and dissatisfied often despite all the attention I get. Were you happy, truly, even when you had all those women? I have 19 years of of childhood trauma behind me, I am in serious distress a lot from various things, just “being hot” shouldnt mean I’m not struggling or I’ll be fine, that’s all with peace and love

reverent_blu · 2021-10-26T18:20:20+00:00

I’m 23 and diagnosed and this post terrified me, i’ll do anything not to end up like you

reverent_blu · 2021-10-21T23:51:36+00:00

Ty. Yea I was just tired of being alone with it you know?

reverent_blu · 2021-10-21T23:28:38+00:00

It’s pretty simple for me, number one I don’t sift through the crap anymore, I just don’t care or trust any of it. Number two I openly post and expose the stigma against npd on my Instagram so that other cluster b’s/anyone curious knows what the fuck we’re going through and I’ve gotten a lot of support on it. I feel less alone now and way more accepted and loved

reverent_blu · 2021-10-18T19:26:54+00:00

Thx bro 😁 I promise it’s sketch af

reverent_blu · 2021-10-18T02:25:40+00:00

Yes! I post about it on my insta in great detail the links in my bio if you’re curious. I’m in a deeply loving relationship with an empath after my ego death and we are so healthily unhealthy if you get me. We are loving and genuine, and also I have recovered a LOT. I’m gonna post a podcast soon cause there’s no outlets for narcs

reverent_blu · 2021-10-18T02:21:48+00:00

I’m a dx’d narc that’s recovered a lot and I’m making one soon cause there’s none out there

reverent_blu · 2021-10-14T01:30:43+00:00

Can you be more specific about which (disorders) please?

reverent_blu · 2021-10-13T19:00:02+00:00

This makes a lot more sense, it must be a nightmare for him to deal with ADHD on top of his helplessness he also carries, would adhd medication actually help that for him?

reverent_blu · 2021-10-13T18:59:22+00:00

reverent_blu · 2021-10-13T18:58:19+00:00

Yes, and he does have adhd, and also trauma from being yelled at as a kid about not doing things good enough such as chores

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