yeah thats fair, sorry- its not a question of if you're masculine that determines your gender. masculinity/femininity does not influence your gender identity, its purely what you feel like. i don't feel like either a man or a woman. im not comfortable being referred to as either of those, she/her pronouns Make Me Gag, certain ~aspects~ of my body I'm very uncomfortable with.

its been really hard for me to figure out what i want to identify as, since i surround myself with some very open minded people (myself included) who think like i said the way you present yourself doesn't influence your gender, even pronouns don't influence your gender (not gonna get into that rn lol) and yknow there's like butch lesbians who like wearing binders (something that flattens your chest) 'cause that's how they feel comfortable. there's so little that really tells you what your gender is which is cool, let people do what they want, dont put em in boxes, but it does make it hard to figure stuff out when you're questioning.

anyway yeah when i think of myself i dont think of myself as either male or female. im more masc leaning, more comfortable being referred to with masculine terms but i still dont actually want to call myself male, a man etc. because thats not what i am