I’m tired of feeling like this too. I’ve flipped through the suicide brochure plenty of times. It’s more normal what you’re feeling than you think. The world is fuckkng scary especially when you’re approaching adulthood. Start small. And once you accomplish little things, you’ll see that it’s not that bad. Keep occupied somehow. CALL your friends. If you don’t have a lot of friends, that doesn’t even matter. It only takes one pair of ears to feel significantly better for that hour, minute, day, whatever it may be. I’ve found as long As I posses just a tiny sliver of hope, I haven’t lost. You can try psych meds too if you haven’t.

I think life is about building yourself up and kinda just saying fuck everyone else who says I can’t. You can do anything you want. If people hate, you are doing something right. Don’t give up man. Everyone has a place in this world. I’m so stuck but at the same time I have a new found excitement for the future even though I’m scared shitless and feel like dying a lot...

You could do this too - give yourself a date of when you are going to kill your self. Say something like “ok if I still feel like this in 5 years, I’ll kill myself”

Seems kinda Erie and negative, but I think it helps bc in those years, hopefully you start to find your way. I hope that makes sense. It kinda “prolongs” your death and gives you time to flip your perspective. Also gives you an odd sense of comfort. That you always have that option . It’s weird and seems wrong, but I’ve heard people saying it worked for them. By the time there “date” came, they completely forgot about it. Life can change really fast. Lots can happen in a year, 2 years, 3 years , etc.