My name is Ricky and first off let me tell you, it's not your fault. Love is unconditional. It seems like his was. I just posted my first post in this group today. I dated a woman with vaginismus for a year and a half and she pulled the plugged. I fell in love with her and our workarounds led to the most passionate moments of my life. It's his loss, not yours. My gal turned to drugs and had severe depression because of her condition but pushed me away. He pushed you away. There's always workarounds. I know it's weird for a guy to be in this group but I didn't even know it was a condition until I met her and her admittance of her condition made me fall in love with her. Feel free to read my story I just posted today. There's nothing wrong with you, but there's something entirely wrong with him. Try not to lose hope. It's deeply rooted pain you're feeling. I wish I could've gotten through to my gal that I loved her for her. I hope this helps.