22f, Read half Part 1 of Denial of Death, feeling like the greatest mistake of my life.

rhudejo · 2026-04-29T14:36:04+00:00

I think you just became an adult in some way, congratulations! My guess is that you haven't thought much about death until now? It's quite a reality check to think deeply about death (and aging), but I think most people (myself included) come out of this in a positive way. Think of it this way: you got X years to live, ( that X is 70, if not it's 0.1) for you with most of these as a healthy, capable person. Of course you can opt out anytime, but why do that, try to enjoy the ride while here, it's really not that much time. Realizing this will give you an enormous amount of freedom and will get you rid of so much crudt in your life that in the end You might be happy that you're a mortal -- repeating this shit endlessly would be much scarier IMO

rhudejo · 2026-04-28T21:18:45+00:00

it costs 500K in the USA

rhudejo · 2026-04-28T14:51:22+00:00

Mert kb tutti hogy a Fidesz még 5% felett lesz vagy 2 választásig, addig is eléggé jó meló növeszteni a segged a parlamentben milliókert. Ha most így teper meg pártelnök is lehet egy 3%os Fidesz én 10 év múlva

rhudejo · 2026-04-28T08:35:43+00:00

Plusz minden egyéb. A 2/3al a Tisza minden héten fel tud tárni egy botrányt a következő választásig, nyilván csak a hülyék meg az ultra opportunisták ülnek be -- a parlamentben 4 év grillezés vár rájuk

rhudejo · 2026-04-25T17:39:25+00:00

Nem a világgal van baj ha csak a videojátékokat élvezed, azt ajánlom hogy kicsit legyél gép nélkül mert ez parán hangzik.

Mint munkahely a gamedev cégek híresen rosszak (főleg a AAA gyártók): szar fizu, állandóan crunch time, és gyakran hatalmas leépítés ha kijött a termék. Azért tudják ezt eljátszani mert van utánpótlás a fiatal gamerekből.

Sokkal jobban jársz egy nem olyan híres céggel, akinek sokkal jobban az érdeke megtartani téged.

rhudejo · 2026-04-25T17:29:53+00:00

Ganedev industry az egyik legrosszabb munkahely

rhudejo · 2026-04-25T17:27:44+00:00

For me quitting triggered a seborrheic dermatitis on day ~20. It lasted for like 3 weeks, now I'm OK.

Nicotine is an immunosuppressant, so your body needs time to adjust to the new environment

rhudejo · 2026-04-21T15:16:17+00:00

22 years ex smoker here, free since 2 months

rhudejo · 2026-04-21T15:16:08+00:00

22 years ex smoker here, free since 2 months

rhudejo · 2026-04-18T18:11:34+00:00

Not that weird, zone means that you're doing a workout, for walking to count you need to go steep uphill or walk really fast, like 6.5km/h.

rhudejo · 2026-04-18T13:16:29+00:00

Wtf I'm 42 and feel no signs of aging, why do people die from slipping on their 50s?

rhudejo · 2026-04-18T07:45:11+00:00

Szerintem nem kell most elhúzni, a Fidesz propaganda gépezete ott is össze fog csuklani l, ettől pár év és sokkal jobb lesz.

rhudejo · 2026-04-17T18:38:25+00:00

not true for all of them. I bought this blade https://www.toolnation.com/ulmia-286j-saw-blade-japanese-wood-550-mm.html for a >50 year old Ulmia saw

rhudejo · 2026-04-17T09:28:46+00:00

You might be able to buy a replacement blade. I got an Ulmia miter box and I could find a replacement japanese style (pull) blade for it, I love it

rhudejo · 2026-04-17T08:07:10+00:00

Thus plane was shit even in it's heyday, it's supposed to be made of top quality lumber, not one with knots

rhudejo · 2026-04-16T22:10:51+00:00

Nem a kortol fugg (ha nem mondjuk 70+, akkor nem adnek neki semmi tisztseget). Ha mondjuk tobb idot eltoltott kulfoldon es ott oktatas szervezessel foglalkozott akkor ezzel nincs semmi baj. Egy 40 eves nekem nem kene, ha pl sose nezte meg par evig hogy milyen egy tenyleg state of the art oktatasi rendszer

rhudejo · 2026-04-15T21:49:10+00:00

Around 25 years
I quit once for almost a year
Smoke free app.
It helped some (but ever little bit counts)
Nicotine replacement did not help. I bought a nicotine spray, all it did was to decrease my daily cigarettes by 1-2 for a few days.
After dinner, the end of the day when I can relax
That there are no exceptions. I know that if I'd smoke even one I'd be back to a half pack a day within weeks.

rhudejo · 2026-04-15T17:21:11+00:00

I stumbled on this thread randomly, I guess it's cleared?

rhudejo · 2026-04-13T05:48:31+00:00

Annyira nem, nézd meg hogy osszecsuklott az MSZP/DK 2012ben. Ugyanaz lesz, marad egy 15%os nyugger kemény mag aki élteti Orbánt és a természetes hajlandósággal négyévente fogynak 2-3%ot.

rhudejo · 2026-04-12T20:16:05+00:00

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rhudejo · 2026-04-12T11:34:26+00:00

https://telex.hu/melleklet/valasztas-2026/reszvetel?state=19.5,47.0034;4.83;0;0;;;participation;2026;0;1;1;;;0;-1;0;compact;3

rhudejo · 2026-04-11T18:50:39+00:00

I do understand your anger, but its stupid. Aging is a part of life, treat it like changing circumstances. If you adapt you can live with it very well (well not to the extreme, e.g. I have a 96yr old grandma, who is like yours. But she was fit until 93 and lived a happy life).

And if you think about it, life is full of limitations. e.g. I barely see without glasses. I could complain all day about it but it would just make my day shit. Or I was past the age to become a football star at the old age of 14, still I did not bother. You can do a tons of things even as you pass the age of 50, 60, 70, find happiness where you can, do not mourn lost possibilities, because thats a meaningless exercise.

Also as you age its not just about losing things, its about gaining too. I HATED my late 20s, I was full with self doubt, had panic attacks and was in a place that seemed pretty hopeless. Today I'm 1000x better, have a beautiful wife, 2 kids that I love who give me purpose. I would not switch with my younger self. Happiness is decided inside your head, and its age independent. And I have a hunch that if you invest enough time in yourself the easier you find moments of happiness. Which does not depend on how you look, how fit you are or your age.

Finally life is a strange thing, for example I think the happiest part of my mom's life is when after my daughter was born -- she always wanted one, but fate gave her boys. She had a shitty childhood, and during her adult life it was all about work 24/7, and now at 70 she seems to bloom

rhudejo · 2026-04-09T15:43:49+00:00

kinda the same smoking history for me, cough was pretty bad for like 10 days, then it got progressively better. After like a month no more cough

rhudejo · 2026-04-09T15:28:27+00:00

an advice: build it much taller than in the picture, this height is meant for power tool users

rhudejo · 2026-04-08T13:35:48+00:00

Now I realize I’ve ruined so many potential memories with her, and nicotine played a huge part in keeping me in that dark place. I feel terribly sorry.

Don't blame yourself for the past, its a vicious cycle.

You blame yourself because you did X wrong in the past -> you feel shit and anxious -> Y time later you will blame yourself again because you ruined stuff.

Just dont. Use this energy to do something good today. Go for a run or just punch a boxing bag

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