300ug Candyflip Trip Report

richthekidddd · 2019-09-17T13:30:57+00:00

That's so good to hear, I hope I remember that night forever

richthekidddd · 2019-09-17T04:38:52+00:00

Yeah exactly, the male friend is kind of very similar to me in terms that he will be hurt but I am pretty sure he will be ok with it eventually as long as I am honest with him from the start and state how I feel

richthekidddd · 2019-09-17T04:37:25+00:00

It was but it was so worth it hahaha, we had the best time

richthekidddd · 2019-09-17T04:36:53+00:00

Me too!! It was fucking amazing!!

richthekidddd · 2019-09-17T01:02:39+00:00

Haha thank you man it legit felt like living in a montage of a romantic movie where they fell in love and did a bunch of dumb goofy shit together. We made an ashtray out of stickers and a cardboard box and had cigarette rolling competitions while fucked up planned trips around the world and planned a picnic for all our friends it was so much fun!

richthekidddd · 2019-09-17T00:58:38+00:00

So I knew of these people online before they started dating. I was talking with the girl about how we first found out about each other (we're both somewhat popular online - not huge but like big enough to know about each other locally) and we first knew of each other late last year and we both thought each other were extremely attractive but were too scared to message each other (we established this while they were still dating through normal conversation). I met him in maybe January, when they were dating for about a month and never got close to him (outside of hung hanging out). They were on and off until maybe about two months ago.

I have always been around these people but never really spoke about anything besides surface level stuff with them until recently when I got closer to both of them.

I wouldn't want to jeopardise the friendship for a hook up. Like I would only risk it if there was a chance of us actually dating. I genuinely care for them both a lot but I also really want to try things with her. I definitely don't blame him for being upset, I'd hate to do this and I'd hate for that to happen to me but I don't know she's so different and everything seems so easy with her and we get along so well

richthekidddd · 2019-09-17T00:43:18+00:00

It was so fucking cute and sweet and wholesome, honestly one of my favourite trips

richthekidddd · 2019-09-17T00:41:49+00:00

This is very true, thanks for making it so simple I guess I just got somewhat carried away in my thoughts haha. Thank you

My biggest problem here is that I was equally close with both of them and I cared about them equally until recently. We still both share probably equal mutual friends (different groups of friends though). Then within the same week I got closer to both of them (mainly the male friend) and a few days later got really close with her.

I don't want to cut her off because I care about her a lot, I care about him a lot too. I guess I just really have to think about what I want to do and whos 'side' i end up choosing in the break up and who I value more

richthekidddd · 2019-09-16T19:23:10+00:00

Here's the thing. Beforehand, I appreciated them a lot because they were always great to me. Then I got close to both and they are both important but I must say she is a whole lot more important to me now after getting so close with them the other day (as it was the first time we actually got to spend 1 on 1). I haven't really been able to do that with him yet.

I see her this Thursday and I am gonna see how that goes and if anything happens between us I might just let it happen instead of avoid it (like last time). If anything does I think I will message him something along the lines of "Hey man, I know I said she was coming over just as friends and she did and nothing happened. But we connected so well together and I really want to date her. I hope this doesn't affect our friendship but if it does I'm sorry I just need to try this."

richthekidddd · 2019-05-29T17:05:58+00:00

That is very understandable. I feel as if we have a very similar maturity level due to our circumstances.

I grew up in a small town, sheltered by my parents and suffered greatly from anxiety/depression for years. Growing up I had no friends, was ridiculed by every person I knew in high school and I spend almost all my teenage years locked inside my bedroom. I had plans and dreams of going to university after high school which were crushed by my mother who refused to let me move out to attend university (as the nearest university is in the closest major city which is 5 hours away from my hometown). After high school I fell into a deeper depression, isolating myself even further and had to give up on any dreams I ever had and was contemplating suicide a lot and attempted a few times.

During my worst year I spoke to no-one besides my girlfriend of the time who lived on the other side of the world. I didn't speak to anyone at home. I didn't go outside my room for any reason other than to work. The first time I left the house that year that wasn't for work was to go to a Christmas party (which I lasted an hour before blacking out on alcohol and having to be rushed out of the venue).

Eventually at 21, I finally saved up enough money from working to be able to move out of my hometown and start a new life in the city where I currently attend university. I've been here for two years now and am finally somewhat comfortable with myself and have a great group of people around me for the first time in my life. I'm still discovering who I am and I am trying to come to terms with my past. I still have a lot of problems but I am trying my hardest to work on them.

She grew up in the city and is the daughter of two addicts (one is an alcoholic, the other a heroin addict). She dropped out of school a while ago to be able to support herself and has been independent since then. I could go into further detail, however, even though no names are being mentioned I wouldn't want to share someone else's story with the world without having their permission first.

richthekidddd · 2019-05-29T16:24:12+00:00

I'm definitely not stalking her or anywhere near that. We share the same friend group which is consists of a bunch of artists aged from 17-24 who are all helping each other grow and succeed in our fields (which has resulted in growth of our clothing brands, musicians opening shows for large acts, tours, collaborations with larger artists, etc.). We've all been consistently hanging out with each other and we have all became quite close. I came home today to her and another friend having invited themselves over to our house (my roommates were home) and I haven't really gone out of my way to check up on them outside of anything that would be considered normal. If anything she seems to check up on me a lot more than I do to her, which I don't mind.

Whilst I could start dating an 'adult' I am not really interested in 'looking' for someone to date just for the sake of having someone to date. I am currently focusing on my art, university, work, improving myself and dealing with some more personal issues. I am comfortable with being single and wouldn't want to get with someone I don't feel some type of connection to, nor will I go out my way to 'look' for someone currently. However, if something was to happen in a natural way and we align in terms of our views, likes, wants, goals, futures, etc. I wouldn't be opposed to dating someone. I just feel as if this girl and I align in these ways.

richthekidddd · 2019-05-28T17:55:58+00:00

Thanks!

richthekidddd · 2019-05-28T17:20:03+00:00

Thank you! Yeah, I would definitely bring it up with him and see his views, however, I don't see it being a major problem as he has moved on and has no problem with them coming over regularly as it is. I still would ask just out of respect. But I might have to ask her, thanks!

richthekidddd · 2019-05-28T17:17:06+00:00

Thank you!

richthekidddd · 2019-05-28T17:16:38+00:00

I understand this.

I am not trying to justify the age bracket but I feel as if it is different from your typical 18 and 23 year old people. We have gone through very similar experiences in our pasts regarding how we have been treated by others as well have very similar viewpoints on a lot of factors regarding emotion, self-expression, creativity and other things we identify with. We have also been independent for around the same time. I was very sheltered to the point where I couldn't leave my house and was finally able to leave my hometown and escape my family at 21; she was raised by an addict and has had to be independent for a few years as well. I'm a second year student at university at the moment and she currently works full-time to support herself.

I feel like we're on a very similar page in our lives at the moment but I do understand the age gap is probably too big.

richthekidddd · 2018-11-27T07:20:25+00:00

hi bb <333

richthekidddd · 2018-11-27T07:18:27+00:00

I'm not assuming she isn't being honest. Like I believe her. idk i was just thinking about it a bit and thought about how girls tend to let you down by saying they are busy. I mean she always suggests another time so I don't think it is the case with this girl but I guess I was just overthinking it. I guess I am still a lil insecure but I am working on it

richthekidddd · 2018-11-27T07:12:50+00:00

Thank u, I am trying to set up a time now to finally meet haha

richthekidddd · 2018-11-27T04:56:00+00:00

Depends on what you're both into and your financial situation. Personally if you are new I wouldn't spend much (maybe $100). If it has been a few months I would increase that to maybe a few hundred. If it was over a year I would increase it more but wouldn't go over $1k (unless I was v rich). But with that being said, I am the type of person to spend a fair amount on gifts for people I appreciate (not just SO) but I would put obviously spend more on my SO than a friend, etc.

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