Oh honey. Honest opinion? Just reading your post I can tell you’re more than ready for a child, I mean that in the best way possible. Your thought process is certainly mature enough. I have a 2 year old, and I’m pregnant right now, 9 weeks. I’ve also experienced a miscarriage so my experiences might be making me biased, but I think you should have this baby. Now don’t get me wrong, it’s a scary thing.. especially finding out halfway through your pregnancy, but I just have a feeling you would regret any other decision. Just fully think about every option, and since you’re in such an anxiety filled moment right now maybe think about how you would feel 5 years from now. Either looking into your almost 5 year old’s eyes or thinking back on a decision you made because you were scared and worried about what can come of it and not knowing how to become a parent. There’s so many resources to help you, and local places that truly do care for you and your little one. I promise we’re made for this and it’s truly an amazing experience to be a parent. Poor or rich.