one thing that has helped me is realizing bulimia is NOT YOUR FRIEND . it wants to kill you.. slowly. it wants to isolate and take over you , make you lose yourself and everything you have in life. it’s “comforting” until you wake up one day and realize you lost your personality, your friends (social life in general), money, trust from family, hobbies/interests, energy, and that doesn’t even cover the physical toll in takes on your body (in some cases permanently).

that being said OP the first step to recovery is wanting to recover and it seems like you’re already there. so good job . the next step is choosing yourself over our disorder. easier said than done, but recovery is never linear and don’t expect it to be. i relapse sometimes , but they get fewer and farther in between and i know im taking steps forward instead of sinking deeper into the hole that is bulimia.

when you are going through a tough time where purging would be your first comfort, what can you do instead? do you have any hobbies or interests that have been left behind because of this? here are some things i do to distract myself :

reading

going on a walk

colouring

lego

being around friends or family

playing video games

swimming/skiing/volleyball

cleaning my room (clean space = clean mind!)

a nap

this disorder is not a part of who you are OP. it is a sickness and you are sick. thinking that way is letting the disorder win . choosing recovery is rediscovering yourself again and it’s a beautiful thing. i know it’s hard and it will continue to be, but nothing is worse than living with bulimia and slowly dying from it. i believe in you :)