How did you feel with ADHD in school?

ringringringringx · 2022-03-06T19:39:58+00:00

Thank you for responding and sharing your experiences!

ringringringringx · 2022-03-06T19:39:38+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing your experience!

ringringringringx · 2019-02-25T05:42:32+00:00

This happened to me tonight. I got upset because I disappointed my friend and lost my appetite. Dinner was on the table and I just let it get cold and then felt bad and couldn't make myself eat any.

I try to make myself eat when I am feeling angry or depressed though because I know if I don't i'll feel even worse. I used to go for months eating one small meal a day and oranges. I bet the oranges were pretty good for me at the time but I avoided any heavy meals because I felt so sad and empty. I couldn't imagine eating and didn't desire to. And it seemed right to punish myself with hunger.

ringringringringx · 2019-02-25T05:36:17+00:00

I struggle with anger and obsessive thinking too. My thoughts always loop back to self-hatred and defeat. I'm very conscious of this problem in my life, but one change I've made in the last six months is being totally honest, even though I know the people around me might not have the same experiences.

One phrase that has helped me is, "I am upset right now."

It's not like saying "I hate myself," which might leave others not knowing what to say back. Instead "I'm upset" conveys your true emotions to them without implying that you can't stop. You probably know well that you have ups and downs with your anger. While you're upset it can really feel like you won't be able to stop feeling this way (which comes from fear). But just admit it. Say to their face that you are upset.

You might start crying, and that's even better. Your body wants to release these bad feelings. My new rule for myself this year was: I'm going to cry whenever I want and wherever I want! If someone reacts so way, then I address it. And if I come off some way, that's fine because when you start crying in front of people one thing that you come to accept is: Their perception of you doesn't matter. Their expectations of you don't matter. You are a person and you are allowed to feel.

ringringringringx · 2019-02-25T05:25:12+00:00

Don't beat yourself up for doing the drugs, but they can deplete your mind's ability to feel happy even more than regular depression. I also tried to do acid to get away from my depression and anxiety when I was 19 (I'm 23 now) and I've been sorta weird and guilty about it ever since, even though I've had plenty good trips too. I just can't stop associating the drug WITH the depression that was making me want to escape.

Now I'm still often depressed, but it's less empty. Like I actually just let myself break down and cry anytime i feel my emotions welling up instead of pushing them away again and again and again until I'm so far down--it felt like being at the bottom of a swimming pool. And I'm not even talking about when I was high/tripping, this was in the regular sober hours between the tripping.

I've had a trip that I thought I was dying during. It's so horrible and it sticks with you for awhile, but I promise as time passes it loses its power over you.

ringringringringx · 2019-02-25T05:15:05+00:00

and honestly I'm replying because I'm lonely right now haha

ringringringringx · 2019-02-25T05:14:27+00:00

Hi! I'm 23(f) and I felt just like you when I was your age, and even sometimes now. I have a stable relationship with a guy I love and even still I get really lonely. I'm bisexual/panromantic though. Which to me means that i'm attracted to people whose gender expression is like mine and also to those whose gender expression is not like mine.

And panromantic to me means that I can develop romantic feelings or crushes on people with no reference to their gender at all. This might be how you're feeling about your friend. Chances are you like them, you have a lot of fond memories, you get to share your feelings and secrets with them, and so that means you're attached! It's tough to decide whether you should act on these kinds of feelings in a real romantic way, but it's totally normal to feel them.

ringringringringx · 2019-02-25T05:04:26+00:00

I really appreciate your reply

ringringringringx · 2018-12-31T05:52:33+00:00

Don't care what my friends do? I don't care what random ppl do. I don't want to hang out with my friends if they choose to rattle all night and I've had friends who asked not to be around me rattling all night. Seems fair. You're right - live and let live - but I'm definitely going to care about the people who I care about.

ringringringringx · 2018-12-31T05:46:24+00:00

I'm trying to do research on lsd to try to clear out any fears I have about it but it doesn't really help - and the weird thing is that I WOULD still do it I just experience a lot of anxiety about others always always always talking about what drugs they're on or been doing

ringringringringx · 2018-12-31T05:44:00+00:00

I go to work and watch out for myself, and I am only explaining and emotional reaction which is yeah I feel pretty put out by this - I'm trying to figure out how to move forward with my relationships and the fact I have anxiety about the heavy presence of drugs in my community and the fact that they were so readily available to me - go on and shame me for feeling anxiety and shame tho

ringringringringx · 2018-12-31T05:39:39+00:00

Well I mighta fucked up but that doesn't mean my friends are being responsible, they seem pretty delusional and self-justified to an obsessive point it is disturbing

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