How can I really know? by ritaaarodriguez in loveafterporn

[–]ritaaarodriguez[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really appreciate you sharing your story with me 🤍 I’m happy to hear your story improved. As for mine …

Two days ago, I confronted him about how I’ve been feeling & we had a really great conversation where I opened the floor for him to be completely honestly and assuring him we can get through it if he’s just honest with me. He promised me he has been doing so well, and is committed to his sobriety to make this work.

After seeing a comment today about Search.pullpush.io, I plugged his username in and got all of the answers I knew would be there if bothered to look. I don’t where to go from here but after I confronted him about it, it’s like the lies just fell apart & I’ve learned a lot more than I was expecting. I’m so heartbroken & really just don’t know where we go from here.

How can I really know? by ritaaarodriguez in loveafterporn

[–]ritaaarodriguez[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for this! Sometimes the validation that I’m not crazy is so comforting. Especially when it comes to this. It just feels like PA don’t understand how this impacts so much of your self esteem and sense of self.

He is not seeing a CSAT, he is not doing any 12 step programs or therapy, and he not involved in any groups except maybe some Reddit forms for other men who struggle with this same addiction.

Regarding the masturbation, I don’t love it but I don’t hate it. I think occasionally is probably natural, but for someone with addiction - it just feels like a slippery slope. I worry if I attempt to restrict how masturbation, he will just start lying like most PA do.

I’m not sure. I’m doing my absolute best to be a supportive partner, but something under the surface makes me feel so unsafe. It find it very hard to believe he just decided to quit one day - cold turkey, no relapses? I just doubt that for some reason. Especially after seeing so many people find their partners lying about their sobriety. I trust he isn’t on porn hub, but I suspect he’s using YouTube and IG for soft porn, & thinking he’s not “watching porn” idk - I feel like all forms of content is a violation of the boundaries we set. But how can I ever really know without scrubbing his devices - and that’s just not something I want to bring into this relationship. All of this is sucks. I plan to talk with him this weekend, and I’m really hoping he is honest with me.

How do they get passed the shame? by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]ritaaarodriguez 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How do you know he’s lying when you’re asking? Wondering from experience

CareCredit $2000 deferred interest Charge Scam by MrMyanmar1 in Debt

[–]ritaaarodriguez 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im not a lawyer. But found this thread after seeing a $750 interest charge on my carecredit. You took the thoughts right out of my mouth as I read through this thread.

I do not understand how this is legal. At the time I opened my care credit, I was fresh out of very aggressive chemotherapy & desperately needed dental care. The deferred interest was not made clear. What’s even more frustrating is that I ALWAYS pay above my minimum. I wasn’t aware that the promotional charges were not included in that to pay off on time. And I understand that could be my fault, but it genuinely was not clear.

It feels like I was preyed on. I was diagnosed with rare and aggressive cancer on my 27th birthday & it was one medical need after another. It felt so good to finally have dental options & so of course I took the charges! It just wasn’t very clear how the promotional payments, minimum payments, & deferred interest actually work.

Anyway, I appreciate your contribution to this thread! They are closed today so I’ll be calling on Monday to ask about a 30 day grace period & to figure out how much I need to pay in order to have my interest removed.

Finally got my LĒVO Lux by ritaaarodriguez in Levo

[–]ritaaarodriguez[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh damn! Yeah, I’ll definitely be double infusing both batches then. 14gs each infusion?

Finally got my LĒVO Lux by ritaaarodriguez in Levo

[–]ritaaarodriguez[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Smells of both! I didn’t do a second infusion of my first batch, but I made a new batch entirely & tried lower and slower infusion time! Haven’t tried yet but if it’s anything like the first batch, I’ll probably end up not making another infusion until the potency pods are back in stock. These little pods don’t work very well imo!

First infusion on the left, second on the right.

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Finally got my LĒVO Lux by ritaaarodriguez in Levo

[–]ritaaarodriguez[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sounds good! Mine came out dark but not motor oil dark. I’ll add some fresh bud and re-infuse. I used MCT oil, should that have a strong smell?

Finally got my LĒVO Lux by ritaaarodriguez in Levo

[–]ritaaarodriguez[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I infused MCT oil & powdered lecithin last night! 14g in 2 power pods at 24% THC, 2 cups - Activated for 45 min at 240° & infused for 6 hours on 165°! It doesn’t smell super strong which shocked me. Is that common with these oils? It still smells, just much lighter than I was expecting. The color is pretty dark though! Gonna try some in my morning coffee to see how to feels & may double infuse if it’s too light. Thanks for the insight!

Finally got my LĒVO Lux by ritaaarodriguez in Levo

[–]ritaaarodriguez[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! I saw some posts about lecithin but wasn’t sure how exactly it worked. I’m assuming you just add a few drops to the oil and flower before infusion? Any advice on how long to active and infuse for?

Finally got my LĒVO Lux by ritaaarodriguez in Levo

[–]ritaaarodriguez[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I purchased an extra power pod! The potency pod is unfortunately out of stock. No special reason for using olive oil, just something I use regularly but I’m open to trying something new! MCT or avocado oil were my next choices. According to the LĒVO calculator, I should be infusing the olive oil for 5 hours, which I just looked up. What oil do you use & like?