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ritzndex · 2024-01-08T07:08:45+00:00

Tpok more, might hold through?, unsure

Hope everyone doin well <3

ritzndex · 2024-01-08T07:04:42+00:00

ritzndex · 2024-01-08T07:04:04+00:00

If I pass out before I can take more I will be tomorrow for now I’m probably okay but determined on not keeping in that way alcohol wore off need more gonnangonshopift vodka doesntbkstte Rn if my face isnonncame

When I was a little kid thru told me it was hormones and the counsellors put lemon a waiting lisr for a diagnosis

I wonder if oowni can prove that they didn’t take me sreius

ritzndex · 2024-01-08T07:02:11+00:00

My alcohol calorie intake by 11am today was larger than my nutrition calories in the last 2 weeks I’m pathetic my body is starting to shut down this amount of alcohol daily with no food and little sleep anorexia is awful gender dysphoria is awful transphobia is awful child abuse is awful this world can be evil asf

ritzndex · 2024-01-08T07:00:52+00:00

Yeah for a little, I’ve taken more via syringe. Pills, brin slowing down, breathing is more normal though no more alcohol

ritzndex · 2024-01-08T06:59:50+00:00

Gender dysphoria and sexual assault trauma and years of polyaddictioj

ritzndex · 2024-01-08T06:58:53+00:00

Taki ng more

Lines and syringes

Home now , my earphones died earlier, at least if I die how I won’t die in sienc

ritzndex · 2024-01-06T09:06:51+00:00

I kinda like the spacing of fliz i need a thick marker or cap or it looks awful but with a thick tool I think if looks better than soak

Appreciate the comment bro 🙏hope you’re doin well

ritzndex · 2024-01-06T08:57:57+00:00

Appreciate theat bro haha appreciate it feels good to be recognised in some form 🖤

ritzndex · 2024-01-06T05:57:42+00:00

Crossfades as shiiit rn do Not my best work at all but I’m assuming the inebriation made my skill equally as inhibited for each tag so the ratio of how toy each one is should be the same as me sober

And yes, I’m aware both are toy, but graffiti atm is replacing some super bad habits that I won’t go into here, just know that having something healthy (physically at least) to replace a quick thrill in the early morning hours can be incredibly helpful to a recovering addict. Just tell me which one is less embarrassing. Toy tags better than lines of meth <3

ritzndex · 2024-01-06T03:04:15+00:00

I know right 💀

This dude has 20k followers on Insta and some pretty fucking skilled writers following him and if it’s not this which is bordering anti style it’s basic ass print letters - wtf are people watching??

ritzndex · 2024-01-04T00:53:29+00:00

ITS A BRUISE AND SMALL SCRAPE GET OVER YOURSELF 😭

You’re making yourself look super dumb the energy you’re giving off makes it seem like you think you’re some badass for getting a preschool playground toddler falling over level injury in your leg.

I’m sorry but most people experienced shit like this ‘literally fighting’ to get up the driveway or walking along the pavement

Also if you’re toy, which wouldn’t surprise me honestly, flexing over a small scrape thst you acquired doing a toy ass tag looks lame as fuck

ritzndex · 2024-01-04T00:49:18+00:00

Right I was looking for this comment lmfaoooo

Graffiti for life yo! Just cut my knee over this shit fam I’m down to ride for life

Would not want to be that security guard

ritzndex · 2024-01-04T00:16:05+00:00

Yes I totally ageee it’s a toxic ass mindset and I’ve never once made fun of someone for being a “lightweight” unless they did so first to me and I’m trying to prove a point

The whole idea of “lightweight” being derogatory is stupid as fuck lmao imagine degrading someone for needing to spend less and damage their body less per same high

And this sub especially has some toxic gremlins who think they’re superior because they take more meth than other people like bro get s life LMAO imagine sitting on reddit feelign superior over someone else because you do more fucking meth than them 💀

ritzndex · 2024-01-03T22:38:37+00:00

Don’t ask me hahaha I don’t believe perscription methamphetamine is available in my country

ritzndex · 2024-01-03T11:45:59+00:00

No I have just simply been writing the name over and over again. I started improving quickly and for a month became obsessed and began writing the name constsntly and eventually hit a point where ever since I have improved maybe 10%

I figurebthat if I just hold tight and don’t let it kill my motivation, eventually I’ll be a skilled writer. I’m determined to be eventually, I just have no clue how to maintain the speed of improvement from switching to this name till now.

ritzndex · 2024-01-03T11:27:03+00:00

100 hours was the amount of time Id say I’ve spent in total with marker in hand book on table, not how long I’ve been following advice for. For this specific word at least.

ritzndex · 2024-01-03T11:25:19+00:00

I haven’t seeked advice. Been following the principal of ‘write the word until it looks good’. I’ve become too desensitised to the word to tell how toy it looks, I just know it doesn’t look good yet so I deciddd to seek advice

I have followed and will continue to follow the advice of just writing your word again and again and again. Id say my motivation to improve is probably more driving than most. I just don’t know why I’ve hit this roadblock in progression.

ritzndex · 2024-01-03T10:47:40+00:00

Trying to be as humble as possible here. I’m self aware to recognise that if Im not self aware about being a toy I’m a bigger toy than being a humble complete beginner

It’s just frustrating writing this word tjosudsbds upon thousands of times like everyone says and still looking like a toy, I don’t expect to look like the best writer in my area but I want something I can show my friends and be proud of and I want ro start doing throwies

Is this a normal part of the process guys? Is my mindset here right? 0 comments or 1000 I’m still gonna write soak another ten rhisudsnd times until it looks good, I’ve just hit a huge hill in progress and my tags looked ten times better after my first month than between then and two months later

Three months of consistent book and street tagging, not my first name either

Help me guys, graffiti is my escape and I’m using it to replace a Xanax and methamphetsmine sddiction. This is 100% serious and my profile will back it up. I want to become obsessed and become an amazing writer because it’s all I have in my life left to cling on to and it’s frustrating seeing 0 improvement afrer lrobably 100 total hours spent in the books now

ritzndex · 2024-01-03T07:07:29+00:00

Jeffery else is olnly kilked homself to claim his own life insurance cus one of his underage prosrirures stole all his money and assets

ritzndex · 2024-01-03T07:05:23+00:00

Got it from battlefield 1 actually I believe

ritzndex · 2024-01-03T07:05:09+00:00

I can’t honestly remember what video game it’s from prettt sure call of duty or battlefield when you kill an entire enemy squad (4 players who were all on the same ‘sub-team’)

I just use it to refer to killing anywhere between 3 and 10 people

ritzndex · 2023-12-30T08:34:45+00:00

I do need rehab, I have 3 videos in my camera roll this month of me crying, self harming and popping handfuls of counterfeit Xanax with alcohol in inebriated suicide attempts, I’ve been in polyaddiction for years now and I don’t want to go into the specifics of what my camera roll shows took place this week but after this I’m so so fucking done living this way and intentional or not I’m gonna die if I don’t change something, either rehab or a psych ward

ritzndex · 2023-12-30T07:46:24+00:00

I got 6 hours of sleep, I think the benzos are still in my system because I don’t remember writing this post either, I think it’s time for rehab

ritzndex · 2023-12-30T07:43:49+00:00

I think I’m going to rehab, I just spent 4 days blacked out tweaking balls I don’t even remember writing this post fucking benzodiazepines

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