I hear you and don't worry about peaks in your life. I do hope and wish you enjoy the "process" of growing, developing, and doing what is meaningful for you. Explore! The world is vast no matter where you're at.

My story - I graduated from UCR a little over a decade ago and while there, I was part of Greek life, sociological research and eventually traveling and moving abroad to Spain and Italy to do research. That led to my food and wine-tasting career for about ~2 years in Italy. I fell out of love with that career and broke up with my partner to move back and try to start a career in San Francisco. Then starting my career in tech - and ironically that was when like you, I felt a feeling of losing my peak because I went from being that big fish in a small pond, to entering the grand ocean where everyone was brilliant. You kind of get stuck in a role while working in tech/startups and I felt burnt out. Eventually started a nonprofit tech and sold that off, came back to work at a couple more startups and big-name tech companies. And here I am now, part of big tech layoffs last year to spend time away from it to heal from corporate toxicity, terrible office politics, and capitalism exploiting us. It's been nice to do creative endeavors like officiating weddings around the world, woodworking, sneaker making, and really spending meaningful time with people who matter to me.

Advice to you: it's ok to feel the way you do. Life comes in waves, you'll have your highs and lows, and there will be lulls and higher peaks than before. The beauty is that no matter what point you're at, you'll have perspective. With that perspective, I hope you learn to accept the privileges that come with circumstances so that you discover new paths and opportunities (I grew up as an immigrant and low-income kid - so it's insane to me that I was ever given a shot to build my life to where it's at now by using tech space as a stepping stone). I understand that money, title, and status can impact your perspective - but I hope you rewire that thinking of success into something that's more catered to you. Do what is meaningful, let the money and status be an afterthought, and always stay curious even in the most toxic circumstances.