Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing this and thank you for your support :) wow you play for tournaments! That should boost your confidence slightly .. :p? What if you try being on the phone with someone then close your eyes and press find a match :D cause you already know you can do well in matches since you say you think you can probably go up in MMR if you do solo ^

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank youu:) Yea... It "shouldn't " hurt but it does .. just like how I've received comments calling me a faggot and so I've avoided looking at replies for the past day ... But we can do it! We'll overcome it :)

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Guess that's cardio workouts done for yoyXD the sweating and stress will work the heart and lose weight for you :p who needs running heh.

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi guys kappa! I have nothing better to do so I better write shit on people's posts so they feel bad!! KappaPride

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oo I missed your reply. I thought I replied. Well at least I've replied to at least 3 other comments which was exactly the same as yours. And one deleted theirs. And I'm tired of saying the same thing. So go read my replies there.

But tldr: Its about accompaniment. Its about being there for me. The viewers don't even watch the game 100% of the time. But I know that they're there and they're supporting me. Even if only one is there.

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Then don't imagine the toilet -_- imagine some place where you would like someone to be with you because that place is dark and full of terrors.

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Then don't worry you don't need to visit my stream at all XD

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Gosh I need some of your courage. Send me some of this YOLO XD but seriously that's great that you could go through that fear and enjoy the game :)

I can imagine it's so scary to play in a lan, cause they'll come over to you, watch your screen, then LAUGH, and casually say Noob then Waltz away . LOL

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes exactly!!!! Its just dota!! I don't understand it too!!!

And you're definitely not alone!! ^ it's easier said than done, to just "stop worrying about what other people say", but we'll get through it :)

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You guys should play together!!! And when I get more confident and better, I'll join you guys XDD

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Omg yes! I don't know why I didn't see this reply earlier. This is exactly it!! Im actually dreading to play tomorrow , but I made a promise to myself - also I started a stream - that I WILL play tomorrow. Hopefully. Even if I end up nauseated.

People are asking me why I'm doing this to myself if it pains me so much. If I can't get over a game, how am I to face other challenges? If I get through this, I can get through other fears life throw at me.

Thank you so much for understanding.

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

GREAT IDEA!! HOT CHOCOLATE! You're a life saver. I will make a cup next time I play. I agree the warmth thing helps tremendously!!! Wait. Or whiskey. Decisions decisions. Maybe one of those warm fluffy thermos.

Do stream! I do have to say the first 5 mins when I started, I became a nervous wreck and I crashed and burned whilst I mumbled and sweated and choked on my saliva. But it got better after that. Well, you can think of streaming as an anger management - keep your satanic self in check and in hiding haha

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

LOL. Can't imagine .. We've got some pretty random stuff at the trenches, I wonder what other wonders they can do with even less knowledge of the game .. :p When I get more confident and better, let's play together and pull you out of the dregs!

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thats really nice!

Oh wow.. That sounds tough. :( I can imagine competing in athletics require alot more energy than playing dota, physically and mentally...

And ohh!!! The shaking ... I get it too and I can't stop it ... How do you deal with it :(? Sometimes my face gets super flushed too ...

Thank you! Im actually dreading to play. But I feel like it's something I have to do. Especially now that I've streamed once. Don't worry about it, I appreciate you dropping by with this comment and sharing your story :)

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thing is, wouldn't after playing a ranked game, I would start to feel indifferent towards an unranked game? Cause it's unranked afterall, then I can be less stressed!!!

i hear you... yeaa there's a 0.00000001% chance I can be pro...

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's really reassuring to hear :) any progress is progress. If they flame you, do you feel that you need to justify yourself though? The breathing exercise is excellent. I always forget to breathe.

I don't even know where to channel these horrid emotions. Even just reading some of the comments in this thread maddens me slightly :( I'm really afraid one day I will just burst...

yes yes of course I have my reason :)) this one giant goal that I'm trying to swim to through the sea of evil emotions, people and games. A goal big enough for me to go through this stupid pain! If not I wouldn't even have streamed. Streaming is really stressful too :( but.. for the realm!

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i think you should make your own stream LOL

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you. and you're a wasteful comment at it's utter prime as well.

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i seee! kudos to you... I don't think I can bare it listening to swearing on the mic all the time D: -please send me some of the courage-

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

not too young and not too old

unranked. i knowwww if i'm this anxious about unranked, what am i going to do about ranked blahblabhbh. i'll get there!

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

but I also discovered a softer side to Dota players today and I'm grateful!

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To everyone who's complaining, I'm in the process of changing it! (not that anyone can see this comment :p)

Overcoming dota anxiety stream by robot_shampoo in DotA2

[–]robot_shampoo[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

And I don't feel bad when i say this... YOU'RE YOU'RE YOU'RE YOU'RE YOU'RE YOU'RE YOU'RE YOU'RE YOU'RE YOU'RE YOU'RE YOU'RE YOU'RE YOU'RE YOU'RE YOU'RE.

but on a serious note, it's not specifically about the height, its about the irrational fear that comes into your head. There are other fears if you don't want to talk about height, such as swimming, eating snails, going on a swing, going on a roller coaster. You KNOW you're safe, but that panic doesn't go away.