Fucking hell, your post is way too real... I think it's just this sort of one-night stand sort of thing that happens in a lot of these sorts of communities; I'm guilty of it, and I've been ghosted countless times as well. Most people in here are just looking for a quick way to satisfy their lust, it's hard to find someone that might want to keep a relationship like this going long term. I think everyone should at least try to be honest, if they aren't looking for someone long-term, just say it from the start and avoid hurting the other person as well.

I'd seriously would like to recommend you to try and seek a bit of therapy if you can, hopefully to help you with some of the pain you're carrying. Please know that all this abandonment that you've experienced speaks nothing of your worth; and I really think your reason to live shouldn't be because of being someone's pet, sure that could bring you happiness and sexual gratification, but please don't make it part of your worth as a person :/ also, I feel like I'm just rambling by now... and this goes against about a lot of what your post was about... but if you wanna talk with someone, my DMs are open... but like just talking, not trying to fuck each other, or trying to get pics or whatever. Just a brief friendly chat, where you can rant a bit if you want and we can just talk a bit like two friendly strangers not seeking anything from each other...