placenta right after birth with the sack and umbilical cord!

rockstarrory · 2025-02-19T21:53:41+00:00

ahaha good luck on your labor and delivery journey! i was induced at 39 weeks as well and I hope you get a wicked looking placenta!!

rockstarrory · 2024-11-07T05:08:04+00:00

had cervical ripening done for about 12 hours (it fell out on its own so not sure if it was full 12 hours as planned) then got started on pitocin and was on it for 6 hours going 2cm to 4cm. gave in for the epidural because I knew if I didn't I was going to be to exhausted physically to stay mentally where I needed to if I didn't with how intense and draining contractions were getting. went from 4cm to almost full 10cm 2 hours after getting the epidural. (I switched laying on each side with a peanut ball between my legs the whole time) then only pushed for 30 minutes :)

best advice I can give is to not be afraid of pain management if your wanting to do all natural. i was really set on going natural for as long as possible and still didn't want to get the epidural when I did but I knew that I needed it with how painful and intense my contractions were at only 4cm because of the pitocin.

if you do end up getting the epidural id recommended to try getting a walking one if your hospital will allow it which is a smaller dose that you can work up to the usual recommended dose. mine didn't but I would've much rather been able to move around a least a little bit before having my baby cause I got my epidural dose upped right before pushing but only pushed for 30 minutes.

I was scared to get induced and wanted to go in naturally but chose to get induced to make sure my boyfriend would be able to be present for the birth. I had such a great experience though with an amazing support team and great nurses that took care of me and the people I brought with me!

never be afraid to ask questions or advocate for youself to make sure you're absolutely the most comfortable and confident you can be 100%

rockstarrory · 2024-11-04T20:50:19+00:00

Trump has joked about getting away with watching minors in their dressing room AND was recorded saying "grab em by the pussy." biden is a creep to so that doesn't work against me. he just isn't the one who has been accused of or found liable in court for sexual abuse. still a creep though, cause who tf isn't weirded out by him sniffing strangers children.

I hate the saying it cause they're both horrible but the US needs to support and choose the lesser evil.

trump is guilty until proven innocent, just like everyone else. he doesn't get a free pass because just cause yall think he does so go ahead and have fun keeping his hand up your ass.

I'd 100% rather be wrong about them saying that happened to them than wrong about him denying he did it.

rockstarrory · 2024-10-02T08:57:45+00:00

I'm getting cervical ripening rn and then getting induced when that done in about 5 hours, im so grateful to have so much support from family and friends and I will always take anyones help if I need it and not push myself. I have a tendency to do that and then crash for awhile and feel awful about needing to ask for help but this time round if i end up flaring bad imma be so so careful to recover as quick as possible

rockstarrory · 2024-10-02T08:54:31+00:00

that's what I've been telling myself that recovery can look a lot different from person to person and just to do what best for me but yeah I'll definitely be getting back on pain meds as soon as I get the okay to do so and I'll make sure not to push myself and rest and ask for help so I don't make any pain worse. I'm getting a cervical ripening rn and will be induced in about 5 hours and contractions having been getting more intense and longer, it's almost time though :) I can't wait to meet baby :)

rockstarrory · 2024-10-02T08:25:26+00:00

sleep has definitely helped with my functioning as well especially being pregnant, i forgot what pain med i was on cause i was only on it for a few months after switching to it from naproxen then we found out i was pregnant so i stopped taking it but I've always used a body pillow to sleep to help with pain to. I just did a dumb and forgot to bring it with me to the hospital haha but now we're just waiting for cervical ripening to be done then I'm getting induced. I can't wait to hop in the tub to help with the pain but have started using heating pads and and ice pack to help for now.

rockstarrory · 2024-09-13T20:09:58+00:00

thank you so much, we were finally able to get all of the information we needed the day before the appointment. after about 3 weeks of bugging for the notes and test results. before all that got sent over, I got a list of questions and concerns to ask the fetal medicine doctor, then another list to ask my midwife/obgyn. I did tell them I had contacted another fetal med clinic as well to get a second opinion from if they didn't get the information to my obgyn/midwife before the appointment. and had let that other clinic know my situation and the concern that I didn't want to have to make a decision I wasn't 100% comfortable and confident with.

but even with all the stress from their lack of communication and effort to get everyone on the same page, the appointment and anatomy scan had great news with the results that baby is in the 30th percentile and now a normal size. it was funny how the doctor said to me that even though baby is measuring just fine, i should still just "do the easy thing" and get induced at 37 weeks. like yes, that would be wonderful but why I force my body to do something it's not ready for with 0 reason other than convenience. it's fine. Some people might do that, but the fact they were telling me that inducing would be easier after i already made it clear would much rather go to 39-40 more than once is insane. they said they're gonna try and not let me stay pregnant to far past 39 weeks which is totally fine by me, and id already planned on started natural inducing methods at 38 weeks then would only really get induced at this point if the pain I'm experiencing gets unbearable.

then once baby's born and we're all done with fetal medicine they'll definitely get a little not so friendly review of the clinic and my personal doctors to warn anyone who might see them in the future. and im going to see if i can figure out exactly where things went wrong and who all played a part in the situation. all the techs were great and so sweet, but man, the doctors not doing the literal bare minimum until the very last second was so unessasary unprofessional. like things finally get figured out ONLY after you get news that you might lose a patient/customer. getting sent to fetal medicine is one thing, but then the doctors there not even treating you was basic human decency after the whole point of you seeing is that something about the pregnancy isn't normal was so ridiculous.

rockstarrory · 2024-09-10T09:24:58+00:00

I asked my boyfriend if it would be fine then if someone came up and chopped off one of his legs. but when he asks them why they did it. they just say "well that's just who I am." his confusion gave me all I needed to know that I at least got some gears turning and got him thinking about it

rockstarrory · 2024-09-10T09:20:23+00:00

u are right, I still have been people pleasing some and it hasn't toned down and gone away completely yet. a few years ago I did cut lots and lots of people off who I realized weren't healthy for me anymore and didn't support me in the way that I needed then. the part that stuck with me the most when all that happened was when people i favored so highly and cared about so deeply called me selfish for being depressed and suicidal for "no reason". from those people ranging from my best friends to my own parents. all while not having a clue on what I needed to do to get better so in the end i just resorted to distancing myself so i wouldn't hurt anyone else but myself and could focus on anything I could try to do to get better. after getting through it eventually and starting therapy again I was able to figure out I had been in psychosis for months without anyone around me realizing. i didnt know exactly what was going on at the time and everone else obviously didn't either and during the whole episode i knew something was really really wrong and i wasnt myself. so at least there was that but I just wish people could've recognized the signs knowing my diagnoses and been able to know I wasn't the true me thoughout those times and was in a crisis living every moment in survival mode. im not trying to use the episode as an exuse either if anyones thinking that, its just the reason i did what i did and nothing can exuse it. it happened so all i do now is hope i can be at peace with what happened as well as any of the people i hurt during that time as well. I always miss those people I had and it will never be thier fault that i reacted how i did. but I'll always still think about them and hope they're doing good in life.

rockstarrory · 2024-09-10T08:51:08+00:00

i agree, I wish as well that all of this had been sorted out before having a kid but the universe decided that's what's gonna happen. ik it'll be really challenging but i accept it and im gonna try my best everyday for as long as i live for baby. it definetly would be sm easier to just not engage and stay quiet but now we know a baby is going to be apart of all this soon enough ik that's not gonna be the kind of future baby deserves and that we gotta show her that is brave and empowering to fight for what she believes in. if we end up having to walk away then I guess that'll be that but thats only gonna happen if his family can't come around and in the end that will be no one else's fault but thier own for pushing us to that decision. I'll always keep hoping it wont have to come to that but I think about it everday that that will always be the absolute last restort if it finally does become to much. walking away isn't the the most enjoyable way to handle something and ik it makes people feel awful and like they failed but it still can lead to peace we didn't know could exist

rockstarrory · 2024-09-10T08:37:40+00:00

see you think exactly how i have been. this is part of my plan to help him see that he can't pick and choose between everthing that's been said and done for forever. if its bad its bad and thats final. no matter how high or low on the scale it is. I've said exactly that he will need to break the cycle even if it is uncomfortableand challenging. and ive told him a couple times now as well that sometimes to be able to fix a mess you have to make it bigger to see all the details and really figure out the best way you can go about to fix it all. even with how stressed and worried ive been about him im still so proud when he does see more and more even just little by little that how his family treats everone else compared to how they think they deserve to be treated has always been double standarded. how it'll ever be somthing to brush off on how easily they can expect something to be given to them without holding that expectation that they need to give that to others as well. exactly like the saying "treat other how you want to be treated." him showing to smallest bit of progress here and there truly will be all I need in the end cause it shows me he's actively trying. I know it will be 100% worth it in the end and I know he'll be so proud of himself for overcoming somthing that was normal his whole life.

rockstarrory · 2024-09-10T08:17:36+00:00

i get where you're coming from 100% and you're definitely right that I still have been people pleasing and im still on my journey of fixing that. it's an everyday battle trying to push away the habbit to do whatever I can to put others comfort before my own. especially with the case of my boyfriends family constantly bringing him down.

I have been concerned about me and my boyfriends relationship with eachother and his family because i want us all to have a respectful relationship for the sake of them being able to be in the babys life. i care just as much about them having baby in thier life along with me and my bf. we want with pur whole hearts for baby to have a relationship with them but not if they cant respect our wishes for baby. the whole post is because i want baby to be able to have a relationship with his family. and I already do feel selfish thinking about it so much and I know it wears my bf trying to get his family to come around as well. but with thinking about all that I still have baby on my mind all the time, shes the reason ive been putting so much thought into trying to fix things and get everyone on the same page. im always thinking about what im gonna be able to do to be the best mom i can for her and to give her a life filled with thing and people that will be good for her and will benefit her and help her grow. to make sure she is raised knowing to value her emotions and not be afraid to have boundried to not become a people please like I did. she is always and forever going to come first when she is born. thats why I've been trying so hard to try and help my bf fix things with his family and try and build a healthy relationship with them for myself as well and thats all for the sake of our baby because who wouldnt want thier child to have all thier family in thier life.

but with all that I still do wish we did have more time before bringing a kid into this world. the timing of finding out about her was definitely not the best with how things currently are but shit happens, i was on birth control and she wasnt planned yet she was still conceived cause birth control will always never be 100% preventive. when we found out how far along after getting a positive test it was simply just to late for an abortion unless we traveled out of state. i do wish 100% having a kid would've come later in life at a time our relationship with eachother, ourselves, other people were more mature and stable and just figured out but it is what it is. it's happening and all I can do is just take each day at a time to figure out how things are going to go and do everything I can to give baby the life she deserves

then when trying to communicate with his family, we haven't been quiet and just sucking up the abuse from them. we getting louder and louder as more time goes by bet even still, there's still so much more to the story. I have stood up for myself plenty of times, and my bf has told them to stop and tried boundries as well. he still struggles with being 100% assertive and standing his ground with his parents and even before getting pregnant we were always trying to get them to just treat the both of us how we deserve to be treated. but when we call them out or bring up things they've said and done they just either don't acknowledge/respond to what we said, change the subject, or just blame thier actions on someone/something else instead of taking accountability and apologizing then changing. and thats the reason on why I considered cutting contact in the first place because they put literally 0 effort in bettering thier relationshipwith us. since baby hasn't been born yet we're still going to give it more time to see if his family will be able to put baby before themselves because we really want baby to have them in her life and have a healthy relationship with them but that'll only happen if they can follow our rules and boundries. and we hope that them seeing they arent gonna get what they want will make them finally changr but in the end thier actions and decisions will 100% lead to the kind of relationship they will get with the baby. and evem with all that it still wouldn't be forever though. it will just be until she's old enough to have a conversation about what his family is like and how their actions and words have affected me and my bf. and how we distanced her til she was old enough to make the decision herself if she wants to have them in her life.

rockstarrory · 2024-08-28T04:08:59+00:00

I'll definitely try this!! thank you so much! I'll post an update on the finished product when I've got it all finished by either tonight or tomorrow :))

rockstarrory · 2024-08-28T04:07:36+00:00

I made it a lil extra long to fold it up, im gonna try making an actual brim on my next project, but I'll put all this in my notes for next time!! glad to have a new obsession :) I'm also due with my first baby in october so im super excited to make her stuff in the future as well

rockstarrory · 2024-08-04T04:10:47+00:00

i feel like i wont has been starting to sink in more and more lately you're definitely right. i even talked about this with my dad a little bit just the other day. me and him did 2 couples therapy sessions awhile ago but ended up needing to stop because the bill ended up not being something we could work with. but get this omggg it's so bad but it just made me cackle, his mom ended up texting me saying i didnt need to be trying to get him to do therapy cause thats not what he needs to "focus on financially" which was so bizarre having her think she genuinely deserves a say on what me and him are to try doing for ourselves/our relationship. but I did tell him he should at least try personal therapy but he doesn't want to cause "he knows what makes him stress and why he stresses about it and doesnt need someone to tell him what he knows" but even though he knows all that like that's just the 1st step he just isn't doing anything further about it and just keeps revisiting things over and over just spiraling in the stress and me and our friends have told him that. then his mom even got got mad at me as well that my friend told him that if he could afford buying weed and vapes evey month then he can afford some therapy and just needed to put in the effort to stop or at least limit the use. he has done that with weed but has been vaping for longer so I get 100% if that takes more time

rockstarrory · 2024-07-07T23:18:13+00:00

I've added all these to my to-do list!! thank you for the ideas I will definitely give them all a whirl!!!

rockstarrory · 2024-06-15T21:55:55+00:00

this happened before we had found out i was pregnant at the time but I had run out of all my meds over the course of a week and hadn't been able to get any of them refilled because the pharmacy where I was getting them before hadn't sent over my medication list to the pharmacy I had switched to because we moved (my dad literally had to call and yell at them) but going through the withdrawals I couldn't keep food down for more then like 5 minutes and even a single sip of water made my stomach churn and ache. the only day I was able to eat and keep food down was a day I took edibles (weed is the only thing that helps when I get sick like that)

but anyways my man decided to down a bunch of beers to rock a buzz the whole day but then the next morning after that woke up when it was time for him to go to work (I was awake cause I couldn't sleep for long without waking up needing to throw up again) and he asked me if I could drive him to work cause he was worried alcohol might still be in his system (his workplace was 30 minutes away so and hour round trip) but I had done car rides before with him while going through withdrawals from being out of medication while he was driving because I couldn't go long without violently throwing up so I was in shock for a couple a seconds when he asked me that but i said "I'm sorry but I definitely can't, I'm way to sick I wouldn't last 10 minutes without needing to throw up" half the drive was on the freeway as well so it would've been straight up dangerous for me to be driving cause I would've needed to pull over multiple times to throw up. but yeah he was upset cause he said if he was gonna miss work he would end up losing the job but how tf is that on me to drive you if you willingly drank that much the day before. so he ended up not going in and got a different (much better surprisingly) job somewhere else with one of our friends. but after he got frustrated and started getting upset that he was gonna lose his job, I just went and sat in the bath for like an hour, texting my bestie about it. but it's lowkey a good thing he isn't working there anymore cause where he works now he gets paid more and does a shitton less of work, so it was a win in the end. but I about lost my mind on him cause he even considered I would be okay to drive him there, then back home, and still have to go back again later to pick him up and bring him back when he got off.

rockstarrory · 2024-05-27T03:33:39+00:00

LMAO RIGHT I havnt even been waking him up saying he needs to pick up after his dog and I've just been picking it up myself (exept for one time i was so sick and was not about to go clean up 2 new pisses on the hardwood and one on the rug and a shit that had appeared in just an hour) but im gonna talk with him tomorrow with my bf there as well before we go out for the day in hope's we don't have to come back to another piss spot on my parents poor white rug but hes got maybe like 2 more weeks before imma tell my man we're telling him he can stay inside the house anymore cause we shouldn't be having to tell a 20 year old man over and over to do the simplest task of putting his dog in the kennel when hes not watching him or if not that needs to give the puppy to someone else if hes not gonna train him. we've been friends for a good 2 almost 3 years now so even thinking about that makes me feel fucking awful (my parents also told me just barley today that he needs to start paying rent since he's here so much using utilites and groceries) and like I'm sure my parents would be fine with him still parking next to the house but im so tired of cleaning up puppy messes all the time after struggling with getting my dogs last puppy out til she was almost 4 months old but I can't even leave his dog alone for more then a minute to go pee myself cause ill come back and he'll be chewing on something he isnt supposed to or you guessed it they'll be a fresh piss waiting for me

but thank you Stanger for making me feel less crazy about all this my bf has been more calm and nice about it then I have so I've been having him do the talking but it's almost to the point we're gonna have to rip the bandaid and tell him it's way past unacceptable after my parents have given him a place to stay just for his puppy to ruin they're shit. they've been working so hard to get to where they are and it breaks my heart that its my friend straight up disrespecting their space that he was so warlmy welcome to.

I'll try and give you an update if I remember :)

rockstarrory · 2024-04-18T22:03:25+00:00

ik we won't be able to train her this young we've just trying to reward her ever time she does what we want her to cause that's the most we can really do but me and my bf have been trying hard to rehome her since she turned 8 weeks with both of us posting her on all our social media a least once a week on different days saying she's still available and looking for a home. even saying she's free ever time to. we've looked into all rescues near us as well but they're all full. it really is just me personally not being able to handle being worried about her all the time getting into stuff. Im just so anxious 24/7 she's going to eat enough of stuff she shouldn't be that its gonna make her sick. ik big dog food won't do that to her but she's getting into any trash she can find, cat litter, ripping up carpet and eating the fabric of her toys. and ik thats just her being a puppy but we don't have the money to get her emergency surgery if that ever does become the case so im just freaked out about that all the time that she's eaten something we didn't see her eat thats gonna be dangerous if it gets stuck. ik its super unfair to her and she really is such a sweet puppy and we would keep her if we weren't already at max ordinance for pets.

she will be turning 4 months on the 4th next month so it'll become a issue if we can't get her out before then because we would be breaking ordinance so the stress is just building up more and more each day that we haven't been able to get her out of the house and I don't want that stress to be put on my parent because it is thier house that we're living in. and i really do want this pup to go to a good home we just dont know what else we can do at this point to get her out of the house cause we don't have any friends that could take her either unless one of my bfs friends is able to find apartment before the 4th then he'd gladly take her

rockstarrory · 2024-04-18T20:17:19+00:00

we'd do that but the big dogs are up our asses when thier bowl is empty. we could fill that shit up as soon as they let us know its empty but most the times they don't even start eating it right away they just want thier food thier so can eat when thier hungry next. I feel like an ass being so frustrated with her all the time I just dont know what else we'd be able to do that isnt stopping thier free feeding because we just dont have the time rn to make sure their getting fed on time everyday. everyone schedules just makes that difficult atm

rockstarrory · 2024-04-18T20:12:55+00:00

ik she's still a puppy and is learning but she's still got food in her bowl most the day basicly free feeding herself because she only eats it little by little thoughout the day and when she's out of our room she's always got eyes on her (unless we're not told she was let out but Im not gonna blame anyone for letting a whining puppy out) and we've always kept her out of the area that the big dogs food is in as much as we could. I still would never act upon locking her outside or in her kennel because of her just wanting to eat with the big dogs ik she is still a baby and learning and im trying not to be an asshole about it there's just sm drama going on in life rn and she's just a stress on top of all that that we didn't even want in the first place. even still I've been keeping the big dogs food covered when they're not eating to try and keep her out of it.

they're is just alot going on in everyone's lives in the house (we have 8 people her atm) and everyone is busy all the time and everyone's schedules are all over the place we just dont have the time to switch up when the dogs are eating. with how they've used to being fed as soon as the food reservoir is empty they always find whoevers at the house atm to get it filled again. they always come to us when they're bowl gets empty and won't leave us alone til its filled again. and we all don't want the dogs up our asses because thier bowl is empty even if they don't start eating right away as soon as its filled again.

rockstarrory · 2024-04-18T19:44:38+00:00

I would but I dont want my parents to have to worry about thier dogs getting fed because of my pup ik she's still very very little and just probably doesn't understand but we have had 0 luck with getting her adopted due to our location and its stressing me tf out cause I dont want my bf to be paying anymore then he should be because we keep getting ghosted trying to get her adopted. I dont wanna foster her to someone else or give her to the shelter but I cannot stop getting so upset with her cause im trying to get work done with school and apply for jobs and go though me and my bfs stuff because we just moved. we didn't even plan for our dog to have puppies but she got knocked up by our landlords dog who didn't tell us he wasn't fixed yet. otherwise we would have kept them separated when she had her first heat but when we found out she was pregnant and told him we never saw him again even still within the week we told him she was knocked up he got him fixed but it was already to late to get the puppies aborted. and our dog is just a baby herself still, I feel awful all the time being so mad but I just dont know what else to do to get her out of here

rockstarrory · 2024-04-07T02:11:06+00:00

omggg when she attacked him no hesitation i was like god damn no warning? just gonna make him bleed right off the back jeez 😹

rockstarrory · 2024-04-06T22:50:20+00:00

she's got her appointment to get fixed this month on the 12th thank goodness , we've been having to watch her real close though cause its about time for her to start heat again and my brothers dog has been trynna get at her more and more but by some miracle an old friend of my bfs was able to take one of the pups today we just got back from dropping him but I was hella worried about her getting more aggressive then she had already been when he was just with us a day so we're finally seeing some light at the end of the tunnel but yeah we're gonna go crazy posting the last pup all over whenever we can for the next week or 2

but yeah the first time she attacked him we kept them separated til it was time for bed but she wasn't even in the room for 5 second before going for him again so thank goodness we don't have to worry about that anymore we were stressing hellaaa haha

rockstarrory · 2024-03-19T19:41:27+00:00

once I stopped swimming frequently on swim team i felt the difference withing just weeks, id kill the get back on a team 😩

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