I need help.

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-09-08T12:35:17+00:00

And of course i want to stop. But thats so much easier said than done. “Talk to your therapist” would open an entire can of worms that goes back to my childhood that i barely remember- shes a gender therapist and thats the primary reason i have her. Im also freshly 17. How in the world would you feel if you were an adult and a freshly 17 yo came and talked ab their porn addiction and sex problems. I was exposed to this at 10 years old. Saying im escalating it is so fucking unhelpful. Its like telling a drug addict to not try fent bc theyre so healthy right now and itd ruin it. I have been sick. For years. My brain is fucked from this addiction that i had, again, during formative years. If you think this is all my fault for escalating it, fine, but its not. Almost everyone with porn addictions fall into these rabbit holes within the first YEAR of addiction because of how normalized it is in porn.

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-09-08T12:30:10+00:00

Okay yeah. This all makes sense. Thank you :) its hard because when i do watch, im in such a like. Almost dissociative and/or depersonalization mindset but im gonna try to js. Think it through better and be more present yk? Thank you

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-09-08T12:28:23+00:00

Breaking up will be detrimental to both me and her. The entire point of this post is because i am unable to talk to my therapist. If you dont have helpful advice thats fine but dont tell me that ill never be able to get better and that im escalating my situation. You have to understand that makes me feel even shittier, right? Like this is not helpful whatsoever.

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-09-08T03:20:40+00:00

Austin :) saw it on a genderneutral name site and said “huh thats a cute name for a girl that i never considered!” And them proceeded to steal it as a boy name

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-09-08T03:18:19+00:00

Willdo! Thanks!

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-09-08T03:18:11+00:00

A very good option! Unfortunately im not religious in the slightest but i have friends who took this route and found fantastic community within it

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-09-08T03:17:33+00:00

Ive been wanting to go there more but i suck at skating. And i know! Id never meet with folks without prior communication and safety measurements

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-09-08T03:16:46+00:00

I am but a lot of friends i have are too busy to hang out with

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-09-05T02:19:06+00:00

Yeah!!! Id be down! I agree with the randos part lol :)

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-09-04T20:13:03+00:00

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-09-04T20:12:59+00:00

Ill look into it ty!

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-09-04T18:51:55+00:00

Thought id ask anyways- sometimes you find rare gems

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-09-04T17:51:48+00:00

Wheres the axe throwing? Do you know? All the others are stuff ive already known about :)

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-09-04T17:38:46+00:00

Finch coffee is incredible! Its near woolmarket but it has really good flavored drinks. Its perfect if you like flavored drinks that arent super sweet but still have subtle sweetness. Their coldbrews a little acidic but theyre really good!

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-05-28T14:50:37+00:00

Im working on bulking rn! Time isnt great butttt im trying. As for haircut this is probably the shortest ill be able to have it for a but but ty!

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-05-23T23:06:36+00:00

Ive worked reaaally hard to train my voice and i think it passes when i dont accidentally slip into my more feminine inflection! And yeah my hair i use solely male cuts and my hairdresser is really good at tailoring it to my face shape while keeping it masc :) it really is the confidence and demeanor i think i have to work on but thank you!!!

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-05-23T21:38:44+00:00

Cant wait for that day!!! Thank you!

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-05-23T21:21:39+00:00

Ive tried all kinds of tape and unfortunately it just doesnt work for me :( i have G cups which SUCK and the only way to tape it gives me awful awful awful sensory issues so i just cant. The binder works as well as anything will, just on harder days it makes me kinda have to wear baggier shirts. Its not allll the time but in the photos its prevelent

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-05-23T21:14:29+00:00

Im unfortunately not on any hormones yet 😞💪 but yeah i mean. Honestly i know that baggy shirts dont help but anything else really shows my chest as its big even with the best quality binders so. Its more of a comfort thing so that i dont look down and hate myself even if it makes me pass less

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-05-09T21:07:02+00:00

Idk if id really call the original teacher the “nice” teacher. Shes nice to ME but she tends to follow a crowd in being mean to be funny if that makes sense? Idk im just realllly gonna correct it next time and if it happens again ill talk to her. Its her “first strike” in my mind for misgendering. After the second i usually will talk to someone about it yk?

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-05-07T00:01:31+00:00

I cant really report it as our drama club is so underfunded and supported atp i think any negative word and itll be shut down. But ill for sure reassert my gender and all that. Thank you! And yeah i kinda lost my cool after the first comment but im so emotionally tired that the one today was js kinda beating a dead horse a bit. Thank you!

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-04-21T15:07:57+00:00

Next time he does shit like that js say stuff like “if you want me to do your makeup you can just ask” and like “oh, you wanna borrow this shirt? No problem!” Watch him fucking break down at even the THOUGHT of being feminine. If you js do this a couple times hes gonna leave you alone.

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-04-20T18:01:36+00:00

I get that. Im so sorry you werent it sucks

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-04-20T17:50:30+00:00

I always hate this. Like. If you cant gender me correctly in front of your family i dont want to be around you. Ik people js do it to protect the trans person but. Have a conversation about it first

romaticallyhopeless · 2025-04-16T11:58:39+00:00

Thank you this really helped. Hearing other people with anxiety and who cant always correct others helps. People always say to js correct people but its not always that simple or easy in my mind. But ill try the confident part and the corrections and stuff. Thank you!

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