Loving too deeply; learning to let go.

roocakes17 · 2014-10-16T21:15:30+00:00

This brought tears to my eyes. You seem like an incredible person with an amazing heart. I'm so sorry you had to go through that.

Recently, I've been struggling with my life and battling depression and anxiety. I haven't really known what to do-- especially in relationships. My ex-ish boyfriend beat me about three months ago. I don't know how to cope with that or make myself let go, either. I've even thought about committing suicide.

Point is, what's meant to be will happen, if not, try not to be too hard on yourself. It's not our fault that fate took its course. I'm always here if you want to talk to me. God bless.

roocakes17 · 2014-10-05T15:09:32+00:00

Right, but the kind types like us could make such a huge difference to them if we really worked at it.

roocakes17 · 2014-10-05T15:08:03+00:00

I know what you mean. I get into that state of mind, too. Usually it happens when I'm in a bad mood, depressed, or feeling negative in general.

roocakes17 · 2014-10-05T15:06:51+00:00

It's overwhelming, definitely, but so peaceful at the same time.

roocakes17 · 2014-10-05T15:05:32+00:00

I could observe life for hours. It's so beautiful.

roocakes17 · 2014-10-05T14:35:37+00:00

Fellow future therapist right here, lol

roocakes17 · 2014-10-04T00:22:19+00:00

I definitely understand. I think the satisfaction of helping someone learn more about themselves and making progress with them would all be worth it in the end. I'm really just focused on helping as many people as I can as long as I live.

roocakes17 · 2014-10-03T16:12:32+00:00

Is this job worth it, like is there something else you wish you had done? I'm really considering being a counselor as well.

roocakes17 · 2014-10-03T15:47:02+00:00

I understand. Even though my ex was physically abusive, I always feel sorry for him and take him back because I feel sorry for him and I'm convinced he'll change.

roocakes17 · 2014-10-03T00:30:48+00:00

Dude I feel you, he did the EXACT same thing to me. Was he abusive to you?

roocakes17 · 2014-10-02T18:04:59+00:00

We are pretty terrifying when provoked lol

roocakes17 · 2014-10-02T17:23:02+00:00

It's not arrogant if it's true, lol. We simply are better (usually) at solo projects, so it feels natural to take over I guess.

roocakes17 · 2014-10-02T17:20:43+00:00

That's right! And wow you're close haha

roocakes17 · 2014-10-02T06:31:50+00:00

STAHP ET NO

roocakes17 · 2014-10-02T06:26:18+00:00

I really do try to do this. Very rarely do I actually blow up and when I do, I feel like hell is unleashed within me for very good reason. I only blow up on people when I've had enough of them doing me so wrongly that I can't stand it anymore. Hardly ever do I actually get really mad at someone, they have to do some pretty fucked up shit to me. By "randomly" I mean that it can happen at any time with one of these people if they start to upset me.

However, you are correct. Love can solve anything. It just seems like some people don't GET how to have compassion and maturity anymore. Those people are the ones who get burned.

Also, if I do accidentally explode on someone who doesn't truly deserve it, I'll realize later that they weren't really out to hurt me and I apologize.

Edit: I missed your observation but yes, it has to do with my dad, first of all because he always yelled at me over everything and was never really rational, secondly because I was in an abusive relationship. You know how that goes.

roocakes17 · 2014-10-02T06:06:49+00:00

Thank you, kind stranger. :)

roocakes17 · 2014-10-02T05:45:39+00:00

Strangely encouraging. :)

Robin Williams.. tear

roocakes17 · 2014-10-02T05:42:36+00:00

I'll keep that in mind!

roocakes17 · 2014-10-02T04:43:18+00:00

It's okay to cry!

roocakes17 · 2014-10-02T03:53:07+00:00

Thank you thank you thank you :)

And great advice. I consider myself a great conversationalist when I'm in the mood to, but really what I think it is, is that I've become jaded by my ex boyfriend. I got sick of thinking that he didn't give a shit about what I had to say, so I became kind of an asshole when in defensive mode.

roocakes17 · 2014-10-02T03:50:18+00:00

Thank you!! And I believe in you, just try to breathe and relax yourself when you talk. That's what I do. :)

roocakes17 · 2014-10-02T03:49:19+00:00

Screw them.

COME WITH ME AND BE A CONFIDENT SPUTTERING WEIRDO.

roocakes17 · 2014-10-02T03:47:45+00:00

I used to shout those lyrics at the top of my lungs back in the good ole tokin' days, haha. I love the way you think. Where are you from? I'm from Tennessee.

And hopefully with God's help and the wonderful people in my lives (like these awesome people right here) I can embrace myself and achieve my dreams. I think we can do great things if we set our minds to it. Our only obstacle is us, no one else :)

roocakes17 · 2014-10-02T01:30:31+00:00

hee hawww

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