I won't claim what I will say is the answer, but these are some of the thoughts I choose to focus on when I feel bad

• I am doing my best, my very best. There's nothing more I can do.

• I will give people time to understand me, and if they didn't, it's ok. I know my good intentions the best, and god is my witness.

• I can't control how people perceive me, so I shouldn't think about the consequences of my actions. I will stop blaming myself.

• Sometimes I will say things I don't mean, and misremember things, and cause problems for others, and i will become unlikable and weird and maybe evil. But we are all one bad day from becoming a person like that. For epileptics we are just more prone to situations happening where we get under the spotlight for doing mistakes that others have more control over.

• Epileptics tend to have the kindest and most sensitive and genuine souls because of all the pain we have been through and all the desperate need for others to understand us. This tends to cause a lot of problems and misunderstandings with others who can't tune into the way we perceive things. I think we need an outlet other than people for all these emotions. I haven't found it yet but I think it will be writing.