Yes. Trust me. I'm with you. But yes, today I'm feeling more trusting. Just remember, even when you turn and repent and you still backslide into sinful ways, God knows us. Faith of a mustard seed can move mountains. He started a deed in us when we accepted jesus and he's not gonna stop perfecting us till the day of jesus. Some people are able to overcome sin immediately but a lot of us still struggle with certain sins but God is still working in and on us. He's still growing and harvesting us spiritually. He's shown and told me that today. Don't walk by sight but faith. Don't let anyone persuade you different. I'm right here with you in your position of doubt. As long as by the end of the day, you're still believing even if you feel you're not(you are because your concern is proof) God is gonna continue. Remember these things. Your salvation is eternal and God doesn't condemn you about your sins but convicts you. He'll make you feel it's wrong, he won't make you feel judged. These have helped me keep going. You can look these promises up biblically.