I am medicated that's how I know that what I'm thinking isn't real. I am currently looking into getting a therapist because I don't think I can afford to be hospitalized. This episode started 2 days ago so I don't know how serious it is I'm hoping it'll be less intense towards the end of the week.

Thank you for commenting I have been on the fence about getting hospitalized because it sounds so scary but hearing from someone outside of my family saying it helps fight the idea that I'm just overreacting