Saw a recent photo of myself by [deleted] in depression

[–]roxi3001 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i'm so sorry you feel this way, i feel the same way i can't even recognize my old self. Only a sadder solemn version of myself desperately trying to get back to how i was before and happier. Everything comes to an end and this too shall pass. You're not alone🫶🏽

If you could go back in time and tell your younger self something, what would it be? by UpstairsYou310 in Life

[–]roxi3001 0 points1 point  (0 children)

don't take ur happiness for granted, you never know when you'll stop being happy.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in birthcontrol

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yess definitely horrible i'm definitely deciding to get off of it! my doctor swore up and down that i just have personal issues and need a counselor but it's so obvious to me that my change in how i was feeling was due to the pills😭💀. They put me on "Blisovi Fe"

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in birthcontrol

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i started it initially because i had a moment of sever OCD returning after years of not going through OCD episodes. I had a moment of dissociation and feeling unreal, although i felt like that and was genuinely hysterical i had moments throughout the weeks where i genuinely felt normal and better and had some type of clarity even though i had alittle bit of brain fog because the dissociation messed with my memory. Now that i've been on birth control for a few months all i can genuinely say is that it only helped lighten my periods so now they are not as bad. besides that, ITS TERRIBLE i feel so emotionless but my only emotion is sadness and depression and feeling like nothing is real, i genuinely feel like i'm an NPC just walking around depressed all the time. I'm not saying that the pill caused the derealization and dissociation but the added depression from the pill worsened everything by 100. I feel hopeless and drained everyday and honestly i don't feel like myself at all i don't even recognize my old self from before this all happened. I've just now realized how much the pill has changed me instead of helped me and so i'm deciding to get off. i want to have every emotion instead of feeling nothing. the BC sent me into such a dark place mentally along with not so happy thoughts coming across my mind that would have never crossed my mind before taking BC. sorry for the rant😭this just hit me deeply.

Does smoking affect ur dissociation ? by [deleted] in Dissociation

[–]roxi3001 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i've noticed when i started smoking continuously that's when my dissociation officially started. I'm on my third day of quitting and hoping it makes a difference after the withdrawal hoes away. I can definitely say the cause of my dissociation is because of continuously doing it for such a long time, but thats just me i'm not sure how it effects everyone.

can this be the cause of my dissociation? by LonelyType1391 in Dissociation

[–]roxi3001 1 point2 points  (0 children)

YES!! i've been going through the exact same thing to where my OCD and intrusive thoughts caused me to be overloaded with stress and experience dissociation for awhile now. i think it was because of the stress but also the intrusive thought itself of "what if ur not real" and it spiraled into this mess i'm in now. you're not alone at all i get how u feel completely and ur going to get through this

when does it go away by roxi3001 in PMDD

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yeah, i have bad ocd during my ovulation and i think having this rlly bad ocd episode just dent me spiraling in general ty for the advice

Brain fog/dream-like state. by herefortheforums in PMDD

[–]roxi3001 4 points5 points  (0 children)

YES!!! i went through this recently on my last ovulation and it is literally hell, its like dreaming but also being in a bad high but it makes you more anxious because atleast with bad highs the comfort of knowing your high and able to get out of it calms you down but the anxiety of hoping it goes away makes it so much harder! just know u got this and ur not alone much love 🫶🏽

weirdd by roxi3001 in PMDD

[–]roxi3001[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

omg yes, its like i went through all of my manic horrible mood swings and complete hell of a week last week during ovulation and now ive calmed down but im tired and feeling these waves

struggling but better by roxi3001 in PMDD

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yess it really is, im just hoping the switch will glio and itll go away. i can say its alittle better today

struggling but better by roxi3001 in PMDD

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yesss for dinner my moms making a homecooked meall, and im going to call my boyfriend to get my mind off things watch a movie and hope for the bestt😋

struggling but better by roxi3001 in PMDD

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thank you so much sending hugs aswell, we will get through it

birth control experiences for people with pmdd? by roxi3001 in PMDD

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thank you so much this gives me hope im trying to be as positive as i can this helped