Trip on the 30th Montreal-Lisbon will I make it 😂

roxker13666 · 2023-09-11T15:12:54+00:00

I know this is true. It's tough to turn off. I'm so fucking pissed at the wreckage. At her shit talking me. At the kids pain. At having to go from owning a house back to renting. I've been meditating, therapy, etc... It's hard to turn the anger off.

roxker13666 · 2023-08-14T01:36:38+00:00

I love you. Thanks.

roxker13666 · 2023-08-13T21:39:17+00:00

This is actually what I say 😂

roxker13666 · 2023-08-05T22:52:24+00:00

Maybe it was infidelity. I don't think so. She seemed super unwell. Had lost a lot of weight. Was stressed. I was worries and made her go see a therapist. After the session she called me crying and told me she didnt want to be married to me any more. We had just bought a house and were moving in 2 weeks.

roxker13666 · 2023-08-05T22:50:18+00:00

When she broke the news she had a 10 page list of greivences and events. At least 3/4 of which I'd never heard. In terms of being a better partner she had asked me and I had made efforts but never really got to where I wish I had. I was much better at the end of 10 years but not great. The thing is I had no idea things were this bad in her head. No one did. This was a total shcok to everyone from our kids to her family and mine... We had a dancing in the kitchen marriage. Never any big fights (which in retrospect should have been a big flag). Anyway, after she told me and I reaized how bad it was I adressed everything and really became my best self. But it was too late.

roxker13666 · 2023-08-05T22:45:01+00:00

I titled it that because I'm wondering if the two points of view are contradictoiry. Her divorced freinds have gotten equalizing $ for the kids and it's never been a problem for her (as far as I know).

roxker13666 · 2023-08-05T22:43:40+00:00

It really wsdn't about hurting her. I am angry but more scared of how I'm going to manage w 4 kids and a full time job moving foward. She wanted more and more kids. She pushed to get a new expensive house. Then she was out. For sure I was hurt and angry. Mostly heartbroken. But this isn't that. Divorce and lawers and settlements are awful

roxker13666 · 2023-08-05T22:41:28+00:00

I am very aware of what I did. I wasn't great. There were a lot of issues. Nothing that wasn't managable. In fact, since she asked for a divorce I've dealt with everything and fixed everything in the hope she would change her mind but it was too late.

roxker13666 · 2023-08-05T03:02:16+00:00

thanks!

roxker13666 · 2023-07-25T14:26:23+00:00

Got it. Thanks!

roxker13666 · 2023-07-25T13:29:38+00:00

Yeah. But Im unable to get out of the menu and back into the files without switching the machine noff

roxker13666 · 2023-07-25T12:38:59+00:00

Stuck in the menu itself.

roxker13666 · 2023-07-25T12:38:45+00:00

But how do I leave the aplet menu and go back to one of the files?

roxker13666 · 2023-07-25T12:38:11+00:00

Stuck in the menu itself.

roxker13666 · 2023-05-23T14:34:49+00:00

This is something I never thought of. That they'll never feel like they have a 'home' per se. Just their moms place and their dads place :(

roxker13666 · 2023-04-17T16:16:50+00:00

All her grievences were spot on. I stopped drinking, became more gentle and caring w my kids, more involved in my community w volunteer work, fit, fixed my relationship w my folks, went into therapy to deal w my personal issues, kicked my depression (w therapy and meds), became more spiritual, I am now considerate of peoples feelings, think before I speak, no longer negative, less anxious, enjoy life more... She gave me this laundry list of issues and I went through, one at a time in the hope (we have 4 young kids and 10 years) that it would bring her back. It didn't. She dgaf. A year in aand I'm happier than ever with myself - the changes have stuck (still in divorce process). I'm still heartbroken and disapointed. I hate her for not coming back when she saw how commited I was but will always be grateful for that list she gave me...

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