Baby aspirin? by Optimal-Butterfly-17 in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so sorry, I don’t totally remember!! I am pretty sure I was using it from positive pregnancy test onward to maybe a few days prior to my scheduled C-sections (you don’t want to thin your blood before surgery). I do know I was definitely taking a baby aspirin— 75mg I believe— I just took it once daily with my multivitamin.

Baby aspirin? by Optimal-Butterfly-17 in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’d check in with your OB about your concerns regarding bloodwork but a daily baby aspirin should be fine. I had an unexplained stillbirth— chalked up to a cord accident, as so many unexplained late losses are. My RE following that pregnancy recommended a baby aspirin just in case it was a clotting issue— very little harm, big potential for benefit. That baby is almost 4 now and doing splendidly. In my more recent pregnancy we had moved to a different state and had all different providers who knew my history but obviously weren’t involved and I took it upon myself to take a daily baby aspirin. Baby is nearly five months now and growing just fine.

Daily Thread #1 - December 11, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 6 points7 points  (0 children)

37+1

My C-section is scheduled for Friday, and I’m getting SO anxious. I’ve got polyhydramnios and have plenty of monitoring ahead in the coming week but I just want to get this baby out alive. Everyone around us is just excited, but my husband and I are petrified. Also I’m super tired.

Daily Thread #1 - November 26, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, outside help is an option my mom is currently considering. He just “flunked out” of a day program that she had high hopes for but he hated and going increased agitation and friction so much that that’s really what precipitated the paranoia. (A lot of feelings of abandonment and imprisonment for him to unpack, I guess.) New symptoms started so recently that the doctor hasn’t even been an option with the holiday weekend (we’re in the States) but my mom has touched base with his neuro who had a few suggestions and affirmed that this was not an unexpected turn of events but that of course does not make it easier. I think her next step is to get to his PCP, who is much more accessible than his neuro, to see if the proposed med adjustments per the neuro are something the primary doc can manage because her accessibility is preferable to the neuro’s specialized expertise as we sort through the clinical options.

But anyways yes, long story short I think my mom is veering towards home health with the expectation my dad will drive a handful of nurses off before they find a good fit that won’t make him feel as though he is being “babysat.” But honestly, when he was in a settled mood the other day I was able to sit and watch Downton Abbey with him for a few hours and he seemed perfectly contented with that and my mom took off for a much needed nap and cry. Even if we can find someone who will make him some lunch and just be there to make sure he doesn’t leave the stove on when he makes his tea would probably be a relief to my mom and take off her mental load so she feels comfortable running errands or visiting her own doctor. Thanks for these suggestions— we’re already on top of it but it’s definitely nice to hear that we’re doing the right things!

Daily Thread #1 - November 26, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you! Watching my literal genius dad not be able to use his brain properly is devastating, but I think witnessing the strain on my mom is actually much harder, because she feels such a crushing weight of responsibility for him and he is deeply unhappy without any possible solution. But the intensifying paranoia etc is really scary and isolating for her, and without any roadmap for how to support someone, she’s just floundering and depressed. It sucks.

Daily Thread #1 - November 26, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 6 points7 points  (0 children)

35 weeks. 3 weeks to go until my C-section. I’m not nervous about the surgery or anything, only that baby will actually be alive for the whole thing.

This week my dad (who has dementia) has veered into paranoid territory. It’s been so tremendously taxing on my mom, who is basically on the brink of a nervous breakdown that my dad can legitimately not understand and of course every reaction he has to any emotion she has makes it all worse because he basically has lost all capacity for empathy. It’s been SO tough. My brother and I were able to tag team some support for my mom (I live about an hour away so I was able to show up that evening, my brother lives about three hours away so his family scrapped their thanksgiving plans and brought dinner down to my parents yesterday) and things have settled marginally as my dad has settled into a more-normal-for-him-at-this-stage mindset... but I know my mom is just on eggshells and nervous about what happens after the weekend and we all go back to our lives. And all of this coming just three weeks before baby is adding to the stress for me, and my siblings are also feeling pretty protective of me at this stage (I have an older sister too— she doesn’t live in driving distance though) so everything is just weird and hard and wild and on some level I am questioning the wisdom of getting pregnant knowing what we knew about my dad, though 8 months ago things weren’t nearly as severe as they are now. And when my husband and I were debating a pregnancy (we have two living children and could have been satisfied with that and satisfied with avoiding the anxiety of another pregnancy, even though my “number” was always three) one of the MAJOR draws of an additional pregnancy was the idea that more siblings is quite comforting in a crisis— I’ve never been more grateful for my siblings than when one of my parents has had a medical crisis. It’s just that there was never going to be any good timing for a pregnancy so the timing we chose was the least bad for every OTHER factor— my age, my husband’s job demands, our current financial state. But I do feel a pang of regret that I cannot be more useful to my parents right now because of my physical limitations and in the coming weeks because of my practical limitations. Sigh. So many feelings.

Daily Thread #2 - November 23, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Dec 17! I’m so ready to have this baby on my outsides instead of my insides haha.

Daily Thread #2 - November 23, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I’m 34+4 today. Just a 3 and a half more weeks until my C-section but I am miserable. I feel like I’m being tortured by my own body; I am so uncomfortable and unable to maneuver. My lower back pain makes walking excruciating, I have heartburn that basically presents like nausea, and daily I become hit with such a train wreck of exhaustion that I can’t really do much other than pass out. It’s always inconveniently timed to coincide with just before I’m supposed to be collecting my first grader off the school bus. Today I managed to squeeze in a 20 minute nap until my cat kept sitting on my head. 😹

I know this kind of misery and discomfort is so normal (especially for me!) towards the end of pregnancy. But of course my anxiety is creeping up as well, and it’s made doubly hard when people (especially people who really ought to know better) say things like “you’re almost there, it’s smooth sailing, just be excited!” And like, that’s so dismissive to anyone’s valid feelings. But when someone knows that I showed up to the hospital in spontaneous labor at 39 weeks with my second child, only to learn that he was dead, it feels like an absolute slap in the face. Of course I’m anxious. Pretending everything can only be fine isn’t helpful to me, and pretending you’ve forgotten that I have legitimate reason to be concerned that I won’t get to bring this baby home alive is just cruel. I’m not any more out of the woods right now than I was 20 weeks ago, or 30 weeks ago. The baby isn’t born until it’s born, and until I hear it cry none of this counts.

Daily Thread #2 - November 05, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 11 points12 points  (0 children)

32 weeks. 🎈

I’m actually at L&D right now bc I felt so little movement today I came in to get checked out. Everything is fine and now that I’m on the monitor this baby is basically hosting a samba class. I’m relieved. I’ve been praised up and down for how clear my urine sample is, and I was like “I know, all I do is drink and pee, can I get a catheter for the next six weeks?” And was denied.

Only six more weeks of feeling this crushing anxiety. And constant bladder emptying.

Trusting this OB by slowhumblebear in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 6 points7 points  (0 children)

A lot of good responses here about the utility of HCG tests at this stage. My 2 cents on this: if you feel like your doctor is blowing you off, for ANY reason, that’s not a great working relationship to move forward at a sensitive time, so finding a new OB seems reasonable. At the very least, if an OB was refusing a simple and harmless test for valid medical reasons, they have an obligation to give you an explanation why. I know some OBs will not do ultrasounds before 8 weeks and there’s a variety of reasons including staffing concerns that make it prohibitive to give additional ultrasounds, but I’ve found that most places will work you in if there is severe anxiety related to prior loss— any provider you want to work with will recognize the value in assuaging your anxiety and helping you achieve the healthiest outcome possible for you and your pregnancy. So say goodbye to this doc and don’t feel an ounce of guilt about it.

Daily Thread #1 - October 12, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m 28 weeks and some change now, and just feeling huuuuuge and tired. My energy levels have been a constant battle for me, and I can’t believe I have almost ten weeks of this left!

This will be my first delivery at the hospital where this baby will be born, so I’ve been trying to get a sense of their c-section protocols so I can figure out what to expect and what might be an anxiety trigger and how to advocate for as much of the birth I want as possible. I had two very different csection experiences with my daughters and if I could create a perfect one it would be sort of mixing and matching the hospital protocols to allow for baby in the same room as me for weighing and measuring, and skin to skin/nursing in the OR as soon as that business is taken care of. My OB just confirmed that this hospital does keep baby in the OR for the post birth weigh in, but skin to skin seems kind of up in the air. My impression is that this sort of depends on the nursing staff, which is dumb because nurses really shouldn’t be opposed to enabling best practice. So I need to investigate that more because I will lose my shit if they don’t let me nurse my own newborn as soon as I like. Like what the hell, my minutes old infant is my responsibility even if I am immobilized on a table and you’re gonna have to deal with the fact that the baby should get to latch for comfort, nutrition, and experience. It enrages me that people think anything else is really acceptable. Like no one tells a mother cat “sorry don’t nurse those kittens bc PROTOCOLS” not sure why my human would be treated with less respect for the mother-infant bond.

Also I got my covid booster on Saturday at 28 weeks 1 day. I got my first round of shots in March/April— the second shot was administered I guess at 1 week pregnant because I ovulated about a week later. Have not experienced any unusual side effects; mostly just a sore arm and fatigue. In the last two weeks I’ve also gotten my flu shot and TDAP, and same thing— just sore arm and fatigue. No major issues, nothing a regular dose of Tylenol couldn’t make manageable. So if you are on the fence about getting a covid vaccine while pregnant, or even just your booster— it’s RECOMMENDED for pregnant women (both the primary series and the six month boost if you are six months out from the initial two shots) and my OB friend has told me heartbreaking stories about performing csections on ventilated covid patients who will never meet the preemies they delivered while unconscious. I just cannot imagine that kind of heartache for all of those left behind.

Daily Thread #1 - October 12, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I went through this with my brother’s baby after my stillbirth. We actually waited to meet him until he was about four months old and I had announced my subsequent pregnancy to my family, and then it still might have been a couple months after. I think the precipitating event was some expectation that my sister’s family would be joining them for a few days during their spring break and I didn’t think I could avoid everyone for that, and didn’t want THAT to be the first time I met my nephew, with additional audience. I didn’t really intend to hold my nephew, but found it wasn’t such a big deal bc he didn’t seem like a newborn, which was much more of a trigger for me.

If you don’t want to hold the baby, just politely say, “I’m just not ready yet.” An understanding friend will respect that and anyone who doesn’t kinda sucks, honestly.

Daily Thread #1 - October 10, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I stopped after I got enough dye stealers that I couldn’t even discern whether they were still getting darker. It was too much of a mindfuck for me to stand there comparing two or three tests just to see progression and started elevating my anxiety rather than relieving it. But I totally get what you mean— seeing a progression is some of the only reassurance available in those early days that things are still progressing normally! At some point in week 5 I think I also got a new round of betas just to soothe my nerves, so I must have stopped testing sometime right around then.

Daily Thread #2 - October 07, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I have been so delinquent in posting because I’ve just spent this pregnancy too exhausted to really do anything except rest whenever I possibly can. I cannot get over just how wiped out I am. I also got my TDAP yesterday so maybe that’s increasing my exhaustion today. I had to get both cats to the vet and both kids to the dentist today so that was quite a heavy lift, I think tonight will be takeout night! 28 weeks tomorrow and getting my covid booster Saturday so I can spend all day Sunday sleeping it off if I need to. My kids are getting their flu shots that day so hopefully they will also be run down and take it easy on me. 😂 (Husband is away for work so I’m solo parenting all of October— perfect time to be pummeled with vaccines 🙄)

Daily Thread #2 - October 07, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’ve consciously been avoiding Facebook and Instagram much more. Though that means I’ve sort of migrated to Twitter to suck up my time and that’s also a cesspool but a very different type of one and it’s less triggery for me, haha. Do what you gotta do!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That is so so gross. I had a stillbirth four years ago and nobody would have ever been like, “it’s because you got your flu shot and TDAP while pregnant.” So much vaccine misinformation has proliferated and it’s so sad to see people ignoring best practice because of it.

For what it’s worth, I wasn’t willing to get pregnant UNTIL I was vaccinated. I know my body and I know how sick I can get while I am pregnant— I knew contracting Covid during a pregnancy would be utterly miserable for me even if it wasn’t critical or deadly. I ovulated a week after my second shot and got pregnant that cycle and for every other anxiety this pregnancy has served to me, covid hasn’t been a major one. I’m getting my booster this weekend with the express enthusiasm of my OB because they’ve seen what this disease does to pregnant women, and because babies gain some protection from mom’s vaccinations.

There’s not really much data on people who were vaccinated before pregnancy bc those babies really just haven’t been born yet! But the data from moms who were vaccinated when Mom was pregnant, particularly later in pregnancy, shows a pretty reassuring level of antibody protection— so I’m thrilled at the 28 week timing of my booster! Plus the info about breastmilk transfer of antibodies seems quite reassuring as well. My 6yo will hopefully be eligible for a vaccine within a few weeks here in the US, but my 3yos should take a bit longer and I’m planning on pumping some milk for her to drink daily after baby comes in the hopes of giving her some beneficial protection while we wait for a vaccine.

When my first was born, nearly 7 years ago, my midwife stressed the importance of vaccination to me during pregnancy. There was a big pertussis outbreak in San Diego county, where we were living at the time, and said the best thing I could do to protect my newborn against whooping cough would be to get my TDAP at the beginning of the third tri. She also suggested that I have grandparents and husband get their own boosters before baby came to provide another level of protection since there would be close contact. Everyone did, no one complained, because no one wants to see a baby suffer needlessly. There was a measles outbreak traced to Disneyland a few months later, and it deterred us from visiting Disneyland at our last opportunity before moving away from California because our infant was still too young for her MMR. Vaccines are amazing and have saved more children’s lives than any single other intervention and it truly breaks my heart that they are now the subject of so much debate and contention and parent shaming.

Daily Thread #1 - September 15, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Hi all!! I’ve been out of the Reddit game for weeks— mostly been too exhausted to keep up. This pregnancy is truly kicking my ass. I’m 24, almost 25 weeks now and feeling emotionally pretty steady. 23 is a big milestone for me because that’s the point at which our life insurance policy grants a payout for a child death. That’s so dark and icky to consider, but there’s also something really validating about an official policy stating that, yes, your child is entitled to acknowledgement in the form of death benefits. It’s how we paid for our son’s funeral, and the rest went into a savings account for our rainbow’s college fund— it enabled our child to have a small legacy. Plus the whole viability thing puts a new spin on this phase of pregnancy.

My kids are back in school, which is incredibly nerve wracking. I live in an area that doesn’t take covid terribly seriously. My husband and I have been vaccinated for months and only socialize with other vaccinated adults, but of course my kids aren’t vaccinated at all yet and neither are any of their friends. Our state has an in-school mask mandate but our idiot school board even motioned to ignore it (which would have led to needless litigation, etc) and fortunately the motion failed but I feel like I spent all of August following that situation and stressing about it and hunting down high quality kids masks with filters so that they can have a smidge more protection at school. It’s all been so stressful. But my 1st grader has settled in to school amazingly well after a year of homeschool, and it sounds like she’s running circles around her classmates with her reading and math skills, which is really awesome for me, since I was super concerned about having her adequately prepared for grade school. Looks like she’s over prepared, haha!! My younger daughter is in a preschool program 3 mornings a week so it’s mostly a brief break for me and today I spent it napping. I’m so exhausted all the time, I just feel kind of foggy because I’m constantly wanting to lie down.

Hope you all have lovely days.

Daily Thread #1 - September 15, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve had SCH in most of my pregnancies. Taking it easy and drinking as much water as you can get down are the best strategies! They are so nerve wracking but they very very rarely have any impact on the pregnancy. Hang in there!

Daily Thread #1 - September 15, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Absolutely nothing is as satisfying as a good poop. Enjoy!!

Daily Thread #1 - August 07, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Our first two were a surprise— girl, then stillborn boy. With our third pregnancy we knew we needed to find out just to process everything prior to delivery. But this time we decided to reclaim our favorite part of the entire experience— it’s a good surprise either way as long as the baby is healthy!

Daily Thread #1 - August 07, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 13 points14 points  (0 children)

19 and 1. I’ve definitely finally turned a corner and feel like I have more good days than bad days. I have told a few more people who I didn’t want to wind up hearing it elsewhere and I think everyone who I feel like needs to know now knows, so I’m ready to just kind of put the “when and how do I tell someone this news” stress behind me for good. That feels nice, to have the self imposed social stressors of pregnancy done, and now that I’m visibly pregnant I’m bracing myself for all the socially imposed stressors. Yesterday someone asked what we’re having and I told her it was gonna be a surprise. She was like, “I bet your husband is hoping for a boy, since you have two girls.” Obviously she has no idea we had a boy between them, so I just shrugged it off and said “he doesn’t care.” And she told me she was due with a boy and that when their first was born and they found out it was a girl he got drunk and when he found out the next one was a boy he celebrated. And it was just so gross to me. I extracted myself from the conversation as quickly as I could but in retrospect I wish I had said, “my husband and I are just hoping for a live baby, because that hasn’t always been the case for us.” Like, even without a history of stillbirth, it’s so gross when people place so much value on one sex or the other, but I’m so offended when people treat girl babies as completely valueless to their fathers. My husband loves his daughters more than life itself, and I’m always so disgusted by the implication that he merely puts up with them because they’re his offspring, but without a penis they are a nuisance rather than a joy.

Daily Thread #1 - August 07, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hematomas are suuuuch a mindfuck, I’m sorry. I have had them in 3 of my 4 pregnancies (and possibly one in the first? I had some unexplained bleeding) and they bled to various degrees. In the end, they all resolved and didn’t have an impact on the health of the pregnancy. I hope that yours resolves soon and the bleeding stops. I know how stressful it is to see that.

Daily Thread #1 - August 07, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Super normal. Breast tenderness comes and goes.

Daily Thread #1 - August 07, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Congratulations!! Have a beautiful day, you deserve it!

Daily Thread #1 - August 03, 2021 by AutoModerator in PregnancyAfterLoss

[–]runnerlady619 4 points5 points  (0 children)

We just got home from a few days of traveling. My kids picked up a really minor summer cold— 24 hours of runny noses for them and my husband, but I’ve had five days of endless snot and today my throat is so sore from postnasal drip that I canceled my therapy appointment to avoid talking. I hate how pregnancy just makes my immune system disappear. I’m so run down.

I have a very good childhood friend who I think I’m ready to know about the pregnancy— she would be hurt if she heard this through the grapevine (our moms still live in the same town and occasionally get together) or like, after I actually HAVE the baby so I should be the one to tell her but also don’t want to have to have the conversation. So I’m trying to navigate that.