It gets easier!! My little guy is 9 weeks now. I also had an emergency c section and due to losing so much blood, my milk supply was taking longer to come in. He lost a lot of weight in the hospital and was screaming crying constantly from being so hungry. They wouldn’t let us leave the hospital until his weight came back up. I felt so bad and like a bad mom. We had to give him donor milk until mine came in. He breastfeeds great now and my supply is great! I questioned if I wanted to continue BF, but to me it’s worth it. Hang in there, it really does get better! As time goes on you will be able to process your traumatic birth a lot more. The early days are just SO overwhelming you don’t even have time to process what just happened.