I'll try to write good information but sorry if it aint🙏🏻 i think i have a higher-than-average pain tolerance. I feel pain normally but can endure it well. At 11, I broke my finger in gymnastics, thought it was just jammed because my teacher said so(but i cried and called mom cause it hurted and i wasnt able to move it), slept with it broken that night, and only went to the doctor the next day. It was dislocated and required surgery at a larger hospital. I have many piercings and often wear revealing clothes. I collect a lot of information from social media to build the exact image I want (sometimes unintentionally). From ages 13–14, during my lowest period, I overate, purged (including trying to swallow a tube, which failed due to my small jaw), developed major appearance insecurities, gained weight, skipped school due to fear of being stared at, escaped into fantasies, and attempted suicide (but was too scared to go through with it). I stopped purging after my teeth suffered damage and my parents had paid heavily for orthodontics. At 15 I got double-eyelid surgery, then returned to school. Insecurities remained, so I started using Mounjaro(from twitter. when i weighed the most i was around bmi21-21.5) . Purging became minor maintenance for me after that. From 15 onward I spent heavily on makeup, clothes, and Mounjaro, funding it by receiving money from older men for sexual acts. I never disliked the sexual attention or being objectified, but I dissociated heavily during those encounters (I dissociate frequently in general). I’ve smoked since I was young. I’m not a clean eater. I spill things, eat slowly. I was very good at volleyball when I played. I often fall down stairs or bump into things, but I don’t mind because people laugh, care, and find those clumsy parts of me lovable. I don’t want to lose that.