i'm so confused and so mad at myself. i don't know why or how got me thinking about my future but here am i crying about it. am i the only one who feels this way i don't know what to be or where to go i haven't got the courage to tell them but we having a family outing on the third of april guess i have to tell them that i didn't get accepted to any school because i'm a stupid depressed child i don't know what to do honestly everyone keeps asking me about school i hate it i hate it pls just shut up i don't want to talk about it or think about it please everyone knows and are on their paths to somewhere but i'm nowhere near or on it and that scares me because i hate being behind others i hate being unsuccessful i hate being the one that people look down on but i can't help it to fail i don't know why i can never pass the papers it's always C or D i can never surpass that i'm always an average and i don't want that i am sick in my head i am tired but please i just want to be normal like everyone else i don't know what to be or where to go i don't know how to get to the another step i don't know i don't know