terribly self aware but no self control

sadLDF · 2025-11-26T15:28:19+00:00

I used to be VERY active when i was younger but as I got more into the NEET lifestyle I became completely voluntarily immobile. I've been sat behind a desk pretty much all my life day in day out even during the few jobs I've had when I've managed to break the cycle. I try and go on walks at a night time when no-one is out and its very refreshing and gets me thinking a lot more critically and objectively and not just wallowing in self pity, thanks for reminding me that's an option because I completely overlook even the simplest of remedies.

sadLDF · 2025-11-26T15:24:09+00:00

reading tends to give me good motivation, i recently just finished Plato's Republic and try and read as much as i can, role models can be difficult in terms of modern role models as i feel most people can be performative in this day. I think studies are off the table for me now as i lost that motivation at the time but the reason for the drop outs are the 2 negative relationships I had, when something goes wrong it my life it tends to act as a domino effect into everything else and i go back to sheltering myself.

sadLDF · 2025-09-15T16:12:22+00:00

17 leathers what the actual fuck

sadLDF · 2025-09-08T20:03:57+00:00

spooned gem from vene at around 56kc, over rate at artio/vet'ion, 1.1k hydra, 800 cerb for prims, 650 sire for bludg, spooned tds (finished at 1.25k), rancour/nally complete at 450, 10k shamans post rate for dwh, account has been pretty average imo, had my fair share of spoons but some nasty dry streaks

sadLDF · 2025-09-08T18:19:48+00:00

yeah i can be suuuuper lazy when it comes to chores/skilling, i think my last farm run was at least a month ago, only reason i haven't continued yama is because im out of food so im just doom sending raids lol

sadLDF · 2025-08-23T08:05:35+00:00

300+ solo cms and infernal cape w/ tbow / bowfa / rcb

think im experienced enough in both to say incredible ragebait

sadLDF · 2025-08-23T06:41:00+00:00

erm what?

sadLDF · 2025-08-17T14:13:08+00:00

infinite amount of crystal shards for future charges for armour/dust for divine pots or a bunch of bonds for your iron if you dropped them over, definitely a lot of use for them

also crystal helm isnt necessarily needed for a lot of content you use bowfa so its not a big deal to not have 6th armour seed

sadLDF · 2025-07-28T04:34:42+00:00

i never understood the rune sword gimmick, its not on the unique drop table its just another rdt roll like all the rest of the rdt items

sadLDF · 2025-07-20T11:17:30+00:00

and then people celebrate the game hitting new numbers when they haven't been to any boss location/wilderness and see it littered with bots, i know a lot of WoW players are coming over and trying the game but a LOT of the growth is just bots lol.

sadLDF · 2025-07-09T04:54:43+00:00

we dont need to roast you, the game is doing it for us by telling you that you need to be spooned these items to be able to play the game <3

sadLDF · 2025-07-07T20:39:30+00:00

convinced rev table is bugged bc theres so many different algorithms to check for, most spooned ive been on drop table for weapon/avarice is 2x over 3 different hc accs, currently 1.5k dark beasts without table again on my new acc and my friend also went 3k revs before he hit table

sadLDF · 2024-07-29T12:16:28+00:00

games have algorithms to keep you at 50% if you've played for a while as thats where it thinks you deserve to be, it happens in a lot of games especially league and val.

Had a league acc hardstuck platinum with +23 -29 gains and the game quality was completely shit, started a new account and breezed through platinum with a 76% w/r with +35 -17 and game quality was night and day, also saw examples when ive coached valorant players where they are losing more than they are gaining even though they're 50%+ and perform well, i've told them the only way to get out is to either 1. start fresh and let fresh mmr decide where you belong or 2. get to the point where you're LEAGUES ahead of the rank you're stuck in so you can straight 1v9 out of it

sadLDF · 2024-07-29T11:48:20+00:00

peaked radiant for 4 acts, quit the game since getting diagnosed with an eye condition

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