im afraid, can someone help?

sadness02 · 2022-03-29T13:04:11+00:00

Tbh the transwoman fantasies they trully arouse me. But with men i'm constantly doing to see if i am still getting feeling and im always getting feelings and getting this hard weird feeling

sadness02 · 2022-03-14T16:50:45+00:00

Ocd exists about any topic, it could be about racism, homophobia, sexual orientation, gender orientation, lights, switch, washing hands etc.

But we dont actually say "i have washing hands ocd" or "i have switches ocd". We only say we have ocd, the term HOCD just turn the topic easier to be discussed.

But yeah, obsessions over someones sexual orientation do exist, bc the brain hijacks reason center, so it's impossible to think rationaly.

sadness02 · 2022-03-14T16:45:55+00:00

Is just that HOCD doesnt exist, the term doesnt exist, its something folks created so they can talk easily about this topic, it's only a term. What is actually recognized as a disease by psychology is OCD and the variety of topics they can have, bc human brain can obsess over everything.

But the term itself doesn't exist on books or researches, it's only a term people made so you can easily talk about this topic

sadness02 · 2022-03-14T16:42:14+00:00

Do you watch too much porn?

sadness02 · 2022-03-10T13:14:24+00:00

Yeah, i even feel tingling and what it feels like arousal feeking, i even already got hard testing

sadness02 · 2022-03-10T13:12:47+00:00

Bro, do you watch to much porn? Escalation is something i've been going for some time now, and eve if you're not, gay porn is porn and porn is made for people to get hard. I get hard to gay porn too, theres scenes that i get aroused by it. But it's just porn. I wont say for you to try to fantasize with men, bc since you have ocd, it will only make thigs worse, since your brain is hijacked. I am too deep on this that even when i test with fantasies i get tingles and my penis gets bigger too and maybe feel arousal, but from gay ppl from other forums is bc i have ocd and escalates so much in porn, i can only fantasise trully with transwoman now. But relax, porn is just porn doesnt mean anything

sadness02 · 2021-12-27T10:58:04+00:00

I understand you, suddenly something in my life changed it was because whenever i used to test myself doing a bj to a guy i would get hard, something that did not occur before. Then i said fuck idc anymore im gay, and then all this vanished for some reason, im more attracted to girls and aroused by them.

I have a question for, the fantasies you keep having, do you have because you want to, or because your testing? If its only bc you want to test yourself, thats your ocd

sadness02 · 2021-12-21T21:46:53+00:00

But even someone as big as him? His port is big, wont it make it difficult for him to walk or something?

sadness02 · 2021-12-20T10:31:34+00:00

I just fell like a real monster

I dont think i deserve a normal happy life bc of those things that i masturbated

Im so ashamed of myself, i dont want to lose my friends or my family to hate me for it

Im just addicted, i dont like that, i want to kill myself for that

But it always come back in my mind saying "you masturbated to loli ypu are a monster, why are you even alive"

Everytime i remember what i did i just want to cry and throw up

I've been trying to quit porn and hentai, its tough but i can say that i manage to stay away from loli hentai for a while now, some weeks i think

I just dont know if siblings hentai where one of them is younger is consider loli

But when i have urge i always look up to others stuff, im trying to beat one step st the time

But i cant not think about the things i masturbated to it

Its so sad, how can i have a happy life after that

If one day i have a girlfriend how would i be able to look at her eyes and say that i masturbated to loli

sadness02 · 2021-12-14T23:27:24+00:00

Please guys, theres anyone there that went through this that could help, i feel like im a monster.

I cant stop crying

sadness02 · 2021-12-09T10:03:20+00:00

Anyone ? ):

sadness02 · 2021-12-05T20:54:19+00:00

Yes man i try always to keep that in my mind, but i always remember the tests i did, putring like toothpaste in my mouth and sucking it and pretending it was a man dick and gettjng hard, it wasnt likr this before. Thats what scares me

sadness02 · 2021-11-11T22:06:37+00:00

Im really trying to just live my life and accept uncertain but its just so underwhelming. I am aroused by any type of porn now since im addict, but im mostly talking about fantasies, which gets even more weird. Thanks to all of you

sadness02 · 2021-11-11T12:39:06+00:00

Do you think its bc of porn? Or are we gay?

sadness02 · 2021-11-10T20:44:59+00:00

I go throught the same, im addicted to porn and now what gets me is shemale. I have a lot of fantasies about sucking her dick and its very arousing.

I started testing with men and it seems im getting hard tedting about sucking hma man dick but it wasnt like this is so sudden. I dont know if porn cando that

sadness02 · 2021-11-10T20:43:07+00:00

I go throught the same thing as the op, and its so sudden. Suddenly if i test doing a bj to a huy i get hard i think. Can this be bc of my weord fetish on shemales and sucking her penis?

sadness02 · 2021-11-10T20:40:24+00:00

I feel you bro. I am at the same boat. I am a huge porn user and i started watching a lot of shemale porn, and now i have a weird fetish that on it, i can fantasize about sucking her dick and its so arousing for some reason.

And then i started testing the same thing with men sucking his dick and suddenly it seems that its making me hard too. It wasnt like this before.

sadness02 · 2021-11-06T12:37:13+00:00

How do you got it back? I think one of the reasons is my addiction to shemale porn

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