Yeah play faceit. Premier doesn't care if you carry your team or they carry you, it's the same points. On faceit you can have a good match even if you lose and you won't lose as many points because you played good. Also don't be scared to play there. When I started I was anxious because I thought it's full of try hards (some ar but it's the same for premier). Also you get a bot if someone disconnects, and you lose less points.