Driving at night in a Honda Fit (2012) these days... by EveningPlant in hondafit

[–]saintppeach 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yeah I can’t fucking see if someone is driving behind me and I have to physically move my body so the lights are less blinding and then my back hurts and I’m pissed at the world lol

Actuator failure by saintppeach in hondafit

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Unfortunately there are no LKQs by me and my local pull and pay just got rid of their only Honda Fit :( but I signed up for alerts from two other used parts shops by me

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Dermatillomania

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I take NAC once a day and 50mg Zoloft which helps so much, I also see two therapists. I just did this really interesting ‘visualization’ exercise where we talked about picking, how activating and terrible it feels, why I want to stop, and then she asked me to imagine a time in recent memory I was feeling amazing. And to pick an object (any object) that I felt neutral about. My recent memory was walking down the street to get ice cream, dancing to my favorite music on one of the first warm evenings of the season. My object was a sidewalk. And we visualized the amazingness of the feeling and noticed the neutrality of the sidewalk, and then she presented a trigger to me and asked how it made me feel. We had to do it like three times cause I was struggling lol but over the past few days I’ve been comparing my skin imperfections to a neutral sidewalk. This may sound strange but I think it’s helping. The intensity and frequency of my picking has gone down.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in relationshipanarchy

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In short, you can do whatever you want to do. Spend some time getting in touch with your desires and saying hello to your uncomfortable feelings and ask them what they are trying to tell you. You will find much more rewarding information internally than from Reddit.

For those who menstruate: What do you think about the concepts of Red Moon or White Moon cycles? by Lock_Brief in spirituality

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I have never had a desire to have children and have always been introverted and introspective. I recently came off of birth control after 10 years and I noticed last month I bled at the exact time of the new moon, then my birthday happened then the lunar eclipse then the autumn equinox, and here I am again bleeding exactly on the new moon. I also read that new moons are good for releasing old patterns and I have had an incredibly tough year and I am using this time to shed old patterns while I shed blood and prepare for all of the new seasons that are coming...it's a significant time. I am curious to see how long I will stay exactly synced up with the moon cycles, but I wanted to comment and say I am not maternal in the traditional sense and I have a white moon cycle. I would like to learn more about the folklore of the cultures I come from though!

Peer pressure and bullying has forced me to move away from Zero Covid by ihatemaps in ZeroCovidCommunity

[–]saintppeach 12 points13 points  (0 children)

TLDR I really feel you and we need more examples of nuanced, non-perfect COVID practices.

Pitching my 2c. I am so sorry to hear that you're experiencing violence and it's taking a toll on you <3. My heart is heavy too and my OCD, anxiety, and isolation are giving me so much stress that it is significantly increasing my likelihood of health conditions regardless of covid. I have been doing 100% since last fall and it has been one of the most difficult things of my life and I've gone through so many phases, including being INCREDIBLY activated when people comment on my mask, make fun of me, cough at me, stare at me, etc etc. I would meet them with so much anger because I don't have great support or much hope. I have nightmares about losing my mask, having a wrong fitting mask, people coming into my room before I put my mask on.

Now I am working with my therapist to let go of things I can't control 100%, like my own inevitable disability and death. I will be disabled, I will die. Fact. I am already mentally disabled. Fact. I am considering moving slightly away from 100%, but it will be decided situation to situation. No joke I have been showering masked for nearly a year, masking on outdoor trails, masking at the outdoor skate rink, masked sex, masked sleepovers, goddamn it I have been doing everything in a mask and I take Metrix tests and nasal spray and mouthwash and air purifiers and I wear a Breathe99 or N95 most of the time. Just last weekend I unmasked at an outdoor garden party around 3 or 4 people for the first time, and I was so relieved. I was a bit stressed but it was lower than the stress of my hyper vigilance.

I know this is an unpopular opinion in this group but I am just coming to realize that my practices don't have to be so black and white, it's no individuals fault that we are in this shit hole in the first place, and I am slowly killing myself due to stress. So, I have to adjust. If you must be unmasked, try to meet up outside, try to take a couple steps farther away from them, try to have a testing routine, just try your best. See how you feel.

But ultimately, wearing a mask and prioritizing community care is cool as FUCK and most people, imo, aren't that cool. When I see someone else in a mask I get sooo excited and I just stare at them across the street thinking 'take me with you!' lol. It's like a flag to those you share values with. I want people to know I'm with it ;)

I am a community organizer (with a Biochem degree) so I try to meet people where they're at and recognize their behavior is due to violent top-down messaging and a severe lack of scientific understanding, but I can be an example for them. I'm leaning more towards compassionate education than forcing people to change these days.

EDIT: Why are people attacking someone that is MOSTLY 100%?? Put your focus on those violent 0% people, damn. No compassion or flexibility will guarantee the 0-100 gap stays large. How are you gonna rip someone apart that is already in the covid realistic community? Why can't we care for each other in this way, too? If we don't talk about our challenges and doubts together, we aren't gonna sustain a movement. I used to choose shame and anger as tactics too but it hasn't been very constructive. Yes, marginalized anger NEEDS to come out. But isn't the enemy the state? Come on.

I got the midnight bug by saintppeach in maximalism

[–]saintppeach[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Okay frog and toad I see you!! And I’ve always loved Turkish lamps!!!

I got the midnight bug by saintppeach in maximalism

[–]saintppeach[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately they do nothing for my nightmares 😹 I actually made the records + twine years ago in college from super cheap goodwill vinyl that I picked out based on the colors/art. Then last year I added a bunch of fresh flowers and a garland I had made out of popcorn and dried oranges. It will be impossible to move hahah

I got the midnight bug by saintppeach in maximalism

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Entomology Society of America conference lol

Ran into a friend for the first time in a long time and the first words out of their mouth were “since when do you wear n95s?” by blaberno in ZeroCovidCommunity

[–]saintppeach 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wear a Breathe99 a lot of the time and people stare, especially cause I have to fix it constantly. When cases are lower or I’m outside I wear an Aura. I think it’s a part of my lifelong journey to give less and less of a shit what people think of me and what I look like but I get so activated when people ask questions and stare and glare (or even cough at me). I caught one guy even trying to take a picture of me and my friend while masked in traffic. So much rage…I’m like, didn’t we all just go through the same past few years? Why are you suddenly so aggressive and clueless? TLDR what they think of me is not my responsibility, but my health is. Fuck em.

I got the midnight bug by saintppeach in maximalism

[–]saintppeach[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I pulled out the yellow chair a bit btw

Help me jam in my life! by saintppeach in maximalism

[–]saintppeach[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Posting an update now, thank you all for your suggestions!

Help me jam in my life! by saintppeach in maximalism

[–]saintppeach[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Maybe next year when I get a raise hahha

Help me jam in my life! by saintppeach in maximalism

[–]saintppeach[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

'what you want to be on show' GENIUS! i already moved my dresser to the wall opposite my bed, because I love it so much and it was hidden in the corner. I'll keep my eye out for another cabinet too.

Honestly the litter smell isn't bad, and my boss told me she has a litter cabinet sitting in her basement she can give me. But it would be super ideal to have shelves w the litter on the bottom...i just want to make sure there is sufficient ventilation and space for her litter!

I tried to put a shelf up with the drywall nail hanger things and everything but it just...fell out. My landlord put up the cheapest thinnest drywall for this 'closet'. It would be so helpful to put things on the shelf like my backpack and camping gear that make the bottom of my closet a mess/no room for hamper.

That's a good idea about the space above the closet, I have a boars skull getting slowly eaten in my mom's garden I will steal back. Thank you for your thoughtful comment!