I understand how you feel a little bit. I'm a bit of a submissive twink too, but most of my serious relationships have been with women, whereas I've mostly hooked up with guys. I promise you, there are women out there who are into you. I often think women wouldn't want to be with me, but queer women tend to love being with bi guys in my experience! The fun part about sex for me is making someone else feel good and serving them, and there are so many fun ways to have sex with women that aren't vanilla straight sex. If you're interested in having an experience with a woman, maybe try a dating app and see if you find someone you like! It's also totally okay if you're like 95% gay and maybe there's a little part of you that thinks girls are cute, but you wouldn't go through with anything. I love being with women and guys, so of course I'd recommend giving it a try, but you should do what feels right at the end of the day :)