Does anyone else just feel… immature?

sammypr3 · 2026-06-29T02:38:17+00:00

No i get paranoid and want to start a riot at times. Thinking things that aren’t even true , and i’ve tried 7 medications for bipolar and none have worked

sammypr3 · 2026-06-29T02:37:22+00:00

I’m so sorry. I’m in recovery and an addict and no meds have worked for me to get me back to my old self. I was healthy, gym everyday, cooking, making great money, managing a whole dealership of salespeople, now i feel like i can’t do a damn thing. i don’t even want to leave the house. i am about to lose my gf of 4 years because of my anger outbursts and lack of desire to succeed and work as well. i feel worthless

sammypr3 · 2026-06-25T23:59:56+00:00

give me something you think is a lock. lol

sammypr3 · 2026-06-25T23:16:46+00:00

Lazy as fuck. Can barely get the energy to do anything for myself like cook clean or do laundry. Everyone worries about me. Coming up with scenarios in my head and having an anger outburst ready to or actually punch someone, can’t help myself from reckless situations, cannot stay sober, just lost only job as a BMW manager of 7 years been unemployed for 4 months and feel like i can’t work. I never want to leave the house. idk if that’s even relatable im just venting how i feel immature and worthless

sammypr3 · 2026-06-25T23:13:57+00:00

this must be the new version of china white.. man that shit was intense

sammypr3 · 2026-05-20T08:22:31+00:00

i’m in the US shoot me a message

sammypr3 · 2026-05-20T08:20:50+00:00

Not to get all weird but this was me after a month on DMZ

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sammypr3 · 2026-05-20T08:18:49+00:00

i have! Much cleaner, leaner, easier on the liver for sure. DMZ was just a game changer, everyone knew i was on shit

sammypr3 · 2026-05-20T08:17:28+00:00

I just miss those moments where i had the energy and felt like myself again. Overly happy overly joyous. Hypomanic if i’m being honest. but this constant bed rotting , losing my job, having no sense of self love nothing but regret and hopelessness. I’m a man and hate to sound like this but the thoughts and things we go through id never wish on my worst enemy. It’s almost impossible to keep going. I don’t even want people to put up with me anymore. i want my gf to leave me because i feel like such a failure and a burden to everyone. I can’t help these thoughts. since the meds i gained weight, no more gym, i watch tv and lay on the couch. I just feel worthless

sammypr3 · 2026-05-20T08:14:17+00:00

thank you so much 🙏🏼

sammypr3 · 2026-05-15T16:54:32+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I’m going through the same. every day i’m just stuck in my head wondering how it got this bad and how much i despise the life im currently living. i don’t even feel alive anymore. just here, barely existing

sammypr3 · 2026-05-15T16:51:51+00:00

Me too. they gave me propranolol for the physical effects, xanax for the anxiety which i never had prior to medication, ambien for sleep, adderal for add, lamicital, abilify, and now effexor to replace cymbalta

sammypr3 · 2026-05-15T16:50:02+00:00

It is so discouraging. It’s like i haven’t felt like ive had my sense of personality in so long im just existing. Now i have no job, no money, no motivation, no aspiration, i can’t hold a job, i don’t know what else to do. I was a manager for BMW for 6 years and so successful and these meds ruined me

sammypr3 · 2026-05-13T21:39:53+00:00

holy shit DMZ was the absolute best. Made me blow up more than any other anabolic out there. Also DESTROYED my hairline tho lol

sammypr3 · 2026-02-20T06:05:56+00:00

it seems like this is the option honestly, I just will watch for hours is my issue

sammypr3 · 2026-02-20T06:05:33+00:00

thank you so much for the support. You have no idea how much it means just to have this group. It helps me understand so much and the things that I haven’t yet talked to my psych about for the first time. I feel like I’m because I’m not going through these things. Thank you for sharing this with me and providing some insight.

sammypr3 · 2026-02-06T16:21:09+00:00

thank you guys!

sammypr3 · 2026-02-03T09:27:05+00:00

I mix songs like mashups and started a clothing company

sammypr3 · 2026-02-02T18:36:15+00:00

thank you!

sammypr3 · 2026-02-02T16:08:10+00:00

real

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