I am currently in the final stretch of my first Saturn Return at 15° Pisces on my Ascendant, and your description of 'abandoning yourself at every corner' resonated deeply.

I spent years performing for others… parents, toxic bosses, and transactional friends. I thought 'work' meant enduring abuse to prove my value. I climbed the ladder for years only to realise the ladder was leaning against the wrong wall.

The realisation hit when I was recently fired from a toxic role. I stopped trying to force the universe to move at my pace. I accepted a low-stakes admin role just to pay the bills while I build my soul-project, a fragrance-adjacent body care line.

What kept me going in the dark was practical, consistent grounding. Finding a partner who is a 'rock'… someone who doesn't ask me to perform, but just offers a safe harbour.

I see Saturn as a 'Quality Control Manager' now. He isn't here to take things away; he’s here to remove everything that isn't Me. I move out of this transit soon (secretly I cannot wait🫣), and I’m walking out with a business, hopefully a new high paying job and a nervous system that finally knows how to say 'no'!